Am I happy?

Now I'm sleepy.. 2nd night is over.. tonight is the last.. today got a colleague wedding but I didn't go cos I slept till 3 plus from 10am after bathing..

Hmmm.. I'm still with my bf.. Never break up for a long time le.. Quarrel n just make up lor.. He's still good to me..

Hmmm.. Just wanna tell u all not to worry for me.. Even though I failed TP for the third time.. And getting tipsy didn't help to blow away the sadness..

Okay.. I go sleep le.. Good night to me..

Hurt

Haiz.. really wondering how can I be in this relationship for 3 yrs 3 mths plus..

Today he told me he saw his ex at SIM.. And from his ex fren he found out that she graduating from UOL..

I was really upset that he still cares..

I was angry, but disappointment and sadness overwhelmed me.. After he followed me walking aimlessly at junction 8.. My tears finally came down when we were eating at pizza hut.. because I very xin teng him looking so pitiful trying to coax me.. But deep down I wondered if he ever xin teng me.. Have he ever feel the ache when he look at me.. A girl who was hurt by him for countless times..

He can find out abt her cos they have common sec sch frens.. And wad do i have? Today he told me he going out with his army frens instead of meeting me for dinner.. I angry that's why he pei me and reject them unwillingly.. Can't he just bring me along? I really dun understand..

That day his family came to KKH CE OBS 2.. I was the one in-charge of them.. My heart was thumping.. I was very distracted.. But my bf just said they dun even know u.. Ya that's right.. Then why let me know them? They are FON.. they are just some china people who are irritating.. Frowning all the way.. I am in fact scared of them.. Not looking forward to knowing them at all..

Why am I still loving him? How much does he really love me?

I don't like iso!

I'm now working.. Alone in the CE annex waiting for security to escort my patients up to the wards.. 1 H1N1 positive, 1 suspect.. Haiz.. Waited for more than half an hour.. Bored to death..

Long time never blog.. Nothing much to say..

Today went driving revision before work.. Tuesday will be my 3rd try.. Pray hard for me that I pass..

I'm still in love with him..

Long time never blog.. Dunno wad to start with..

Life is still the same i guess.. Work work work.. Lolz.. The only thing I enjoy is dating..

Well work was okay.. Got scolding from sister that day when I was in isolation.. Yup with the H1N1 cases.. But later she apologised to me.. Cos it's not my fault..

Oh and that day went changi airport to send my friends off..

Hmmm.. Just upload some pics of me with my bf ba.. Though he is boring n not romantic.. Though we quarrel at times.. I love him more than u can ever imagine.. And he brings laughter..

Finding meaning to life..

Today is my off day after 10 consecutive days of working.. Really tired.. Wonder is it physically or emotionally..

Went swimming with mum last night.. It's been years since I last swam.. haha.. Woodlands baby pool now has got a slide.. It's meant for below 12 only.. So when I climb up the lifeguard whistle at me.. And guess wad? I heck care n slide down.. hehe.. Since already been whistle why should I climb down right?! Haha.. That's me.. I rather take the risk than miss the fun.. Dun care how people look at me..

Anyway went Tampines megastoreS with bf on monday after work.. Love dating..

Life have been kinda routine.. work n sleep.. Miss the freedom in poly.. Miss having 5 day week.. I dun like shift work; I dun like 6 days of working!

Seriously I dun mind the work in children's emergency.. Colleagues are fine too.. Except that day when I was late for a course n sister started scolding not only me but the SSN n everyone blame me.. Nobody came forward to hold on to the trache tube when I wanna send the patient up n the SN who went with me said, 'I go up with her'. Not I go, U stay.. When sister ask of course I never tell her that.. I just said sorry lor.. Sometimes it's no point defending urself.. I was really angry with all of them defending themselves.. They were just crowding around talking n they defended themselves by saying they didn't ask me go it's I wanna go..

And there's this mother who very attitude.. When I pronounce her daughter's name as lo-vette.. She said,' Walan. LO-vette?" So I asked so how do U pronounce her name? And her reply was do u say I LO u? It's love-vette.. SOOOOOOOOOOO irritaing la! I feel like saying fuck u! Who ask u give such a stupid name spelled lovette.. Idiot!

And yes I love morning shift bcos I can meet my bf.. Afternoon shift only get $2.50 extra.. Which is nothing to me.. I changed 2 sunday morning to afternoon, a sunday off to thursday off.. But I refused a change of tuesday morning to afternoon led to complaining.. Why are people like that? Must I change even if I dun like it? But anyway I changed.. My bf is right.. I am just too kind.. It's not bcos she told another colleague that I dun wanna change.. It's cos I see that she is despo to change.. Wadeva..

Perhaps it's cos my bf said I thought Ming Li is very easy to get along one? Oh darling.. Dun think of me as Miss popular or Miss nice can? I'm just human.. I'm not as good or as clever as U think I am.. 3 years 2 months plus le.. U should know me better than that..

Okay.. I'll never finish with complaining about some unhappy things..

And yup I failed my TP again on 1st June.. Next test will be on 7th july.. Wish me luck.. Yup I was really really upset.. But after a cry, I'm fine.. It's just luck I guess..

Ming Li will never be perfect.. But she's striving on..

P.S: I'll not be a nurse for life! I've decided to change my career after my 2 years bond.. I wanna be a Pri teacher (my childhood dream).. But many things can happen in these 1 year 9 months plus.. I'll still be me.. I shall not care about objections.. 3 years ago.. Nobody agree on my choice of choosing nursing.. But I'm still hanging on.. For the $22,000 bond.. haha.. Maybe my prince will appear and take me away?

Loving..

Graduated on 26th may '09..

Last night bf meet me @ novena to go home with me after my work.. So sweet of him..

Today is my off day as requested..

Nothing much to blog.. Just wanna upload pictures..

Medication error..

Thursday went orchard with bf.. Watched Night at the museum 2... Rate it a 3.5 stars..

The long john silver new deep sea grilled fish is not nice..

Friday worked till 10pm cos very busy.. And Saturday came the news of the boy who was allergic to brufen.. I was the one who served the medication.. But I never do anything wrong.. The doctor who ordered dunno that he has allergy.. And the procedure form shows that he has none.. And I asked father he said dun have..

I feel bad that the boy developed anaphylactic shock and was sent to high dependency ward..

I wrote memo for sister to write incident report.. The boy had allergic reactions last year.. So the form should show.. And the father should know! The father said no to the question to the doctor and to me.. So the doctor and me are not to be blamed right?

Anyway hope the boy is fine..

Last night bf came over and we watched X-men wolverine origins.. rate iot a 3.5 stars too..

Later going to work.. It's supposed to be my off day.. But changed with friend cos she need it.. Yup bf say i so stupid.. haha..

Wish me luck in everything k!