Finally can upload photos..

Today is another day of boring orientation.. Powerpoints after powerpoints.. And perform 7 steps handwashing and don & remove gown n gloves..

I asked Sister Christine Sin for change of 3 day offs on 6th, 16th n 17th April (scheduled as clinical practice in CE).. To accomodate my driving revisions and test.. And her reply was driving has got nothing to do with nursing.. And I should've known and book lessons at night.. (She has a point here) She'll discuss with CE nurse clinician and get back to me.. Haiz..

First day of "work"

Orientation programme will last for 2 months..

1st month will be Mon to fri from 0800 to 1630(Liten to boring lectures etc) or 0700 to 1530 (In ward for clinical).. Sat is 0800 to 1300.. Sunday is off..

2nd month is 6 day week: perform 2 shifts 0700 to 1500 or 1330 to 2130..

Today really have a hard time opening my eyes during lectures on dress code, professional etiqutte & conduct, line of communication and telephone Etiqutte.

And 2.5 hours of walking around KKH is supre tiring walking up n down the stairs..

Yeah!!

Yesterday: Went to pay respect to my grandma.. Couldn't help crying.. She's passed away for alomost 6 yrs le.. But everytime I go I'll cry.. Cos I really miss her..

After which went AMK eat and then home to prepare and went out with bf..

Met him at CCK station n headed to AMK hub.. Went around looking at hp.. Decided to buy a brand-new W595 pink.. Cheapest was $380.. So bf asked me I went ebay wad's the cheapest price.. Well it's the same.. So bf said he'll go ebay help me bargain.. Wanted to have suki sushi for dinner but long Q.. Could not remember the way there so called fung for help but she give directions until so messy.. Hehe.. Thanks anyway.. Ended up eating at hawker which bf dislike.. Who cares.. I was angry with him for refusing to take pic with me.. Hehe.. It's just soo easy to get mad at him.. I dun understand why..

We took mrt to admiralty to walk home.. Went 7 eleven again to look for Magnum white.. It's been a month since I wanna try.. And there's this buy 1 get 1 free promotion until 31st march.. But I couldn't find white.. And YES!!!! I was soooo excited when I found white last night.. it was well hidden underneath other ice creams whereas others magnum could be seen.. I have real sharp eyes.. I saw a little off white color and decided to dig.. Yeah! Even the 7-eleven cashiers were surprised why I found white.. Haha.. So I excitedly told them it was hidden.. It isn't my first time going there to find.. They told me many people were asking why dun have and even she can't find for herself to try.. Haha..

Today: Went CCK to meet the guy from ebay to buy the hp @ $350.. Then went LOT ONE to shop.. Finally tried the McCafe mango smoothie.. it's not bad but $5.10 is a little pricey cos I can get better mange smoothie at far east..

Milk

Slept at 3 plus last night.. Was chatting with ZW in msn.. while waiting for bf to go home.. But didn't manage to waqit for him cos sleepy.. The third bad thing is my hp spoil. faint. My bf n mum ask me y i use de hp all spoil.. Haiz.. It's nt my fault k!

Chun came over at 2 plus and went home at 8 plus.. Chit-chat, look at photos, played card games and PSP..

Met bf downstairs for around 50 min.. he lent me a nokia 8250 (My first hp in pri 5).. Haha.. His fucking bigger rank officer asked them go back camp tomorrow usual time.. Walau lo.. Stupid army.. One say rest day plus off day.. The other like that.. Haiz..

Was having diarrhea.. I think it's caused by the milk uncle's fren gave us which expire today..

Now can't sign in msn.. Dunno why.. sian diao..

Suay..

Today went JB with mum n uncle for lunch then go Pelangi wash n blow hair.. And when the girl blow my hair.. OMG! an 'explosion' with fire spark at the socket.. Scare me sia! Reminds me of last last saturday when I was bathing.. My socket of radio and heater melted.. A very strong smell caused me to come out of the bathroom.. Bad things come in three right? Maybe a third would kill me.. Choy!

Bf reported to camp @ 9 plus in the morning.. And will only be back around 5am.. See?! Army simply sux right? But good thing is he will be free thurs n fri.. Yeah!

Yawn*

Went causeway point with mu and ate mac using the vouchers bf gave mum..

Bought 2 bras.. My fav pink color and a black one (pierre cardin).. 2 for $28.. Basically I dun like my breasts for its size is small.. haha.. And hate it when bf says that.. I'm a B70.. if U happen to wanna buy bra for me.. triump is my fav brand.. Hehe.. I dun wear push-up.. Perhaps I should try..

I'm tired.. Waiting for bf to go home.. He reported to camp @ 7.30am.. And exercise should end @ 23:59.. But till nw he's still in camp.. So poor thing.. Army torture guys la.. No wonder some die from it.. Buay tahan.. Fuck. Ok.. So rough of me to use this word.. Before I'm with my bf.. I'm a NO VULGARITY person.. Now ah lian a little la.. hehe..

May happiness surrounds me each day..

Monday: Met up with Zhu Yu and Ma Li Li at novena and took shuttle bus to KKH.. Collected my uniform and transcript..

Then headed to Outram park alone.. Fung and xl skipped half an hour of their boring orientation lecture to bring me to SNB to register.. Appreciated it.. Cos SGH is really big and unfamiliar to me.. And that place is ulu.. hard to find.. Seeing them in uniform makes me feel oh we're no longer students man!

After which, uncle and mum drove me to eat lunch and then home..

At night bf came over with my dinner.. Love him..

Today: planned to go JB but uncle OT so didn't go.. Just finished watching Marley and me online.. Cried as expected.. Rate it a 3 stars.. Bf having exercise at Safti camp.. Will be home around 11 pm ba.. Sianz.. Nothing to do now..

Countdown one week to my first day of work as SN in KKH..

Bf slept over last night.. This evening went chinese garden with him walk walk then go causeway point.. I eat Tomyam U-mian never bring tissue so he went down to help me buy.. he's soo nice to me.. Loving him.. Our dates are always filled with laughter..

Sorry dear that I quarrelled with u over small things.. U know I angry must coax de ma.. Thanks for coaxing me.. Thanks for bearing with me.. Thanks for loving me.. (I know he doesn't read my blog)..

First time going out with a group of guys..

Reach admiralty @12pm on time and waited for Jia Yuan till 12:26.. Board the train and headed towards Orchard.. Reached Lido around 1:07pm.. Late for the movie.. Me and JY sit in B row while David, Keng Guan, Gerald and Zhi Wei sat behind.. Wad an arrangement..

Coming soon is scary but storyline not that nice esp the ending.. It's definitely not as good as Shutter.. Rate it a 2.5 stars ba..

After the movie went to take bus to Paradise.. Eat mee goreng.. They said I eat only 20 cents share.. Lolz.. Last night's steamboat is too full la.. After which went to play pool.. Lost to KG by 2 balls lor.. Haha..

5 plus mrt-ed home with ZW n JY.. Then Bused-ed home with JY.. He alight first.. After which I went 630 buy dinner..

Go home bathe le.. Bf came over..

Friday is over..

Online whole day.. Finally broke bf record in quickfire pool @ miniclip.com. Went Bugis with bf at 5 plus.. He treat me to Tian Tian huo guo (everyday steamboat).. Both of us think it's not worth the $32.60.. haha.. Not that much choices.. And no fruits..

Forgiven..

Bf meet me downstairs at 9 plus and came up awhile.. Met for an hour only.. Sianz.. he's tired..

Well I cried just now over tyhe phone with him.. He neglected my feelings.. I need more attention from him.. care and concern.. More love and misses.. perhaps he doesn't understand.. Not that he dun love me.. I know he does.. But perhaps sometimes I just need more.. feel empty sometimes.. Read someone's blog and feel that the guy and her is more suitable actually.. This makes me afraid.. Will my bf meet someone more suitable for him at SIM? It's not that I'm inferior.. Just that sometimes some people are just not meant to be..

Anyway kinda forgiven aunt le.. i'm not someone angry for long..

P.S.: My final GPA is 3.1 only.. Yup I'm disappointed but even more disappointed when my bf keep saying he's disappointed.. I know he isn't impress.. But wad can I do? I'm not as good as he thinks.. I'm just a girl.. Dun flatter me by saying i have brains I have looks I'm beautiful inside out when u dun mean it.. Bcos it hurts more when u lie than when u criticises..

Back from KL

Monday: Set off from house at 9:30.. Meet aunt at 10.. Went city Square awhile then went Larkin terminal board the bus at 1pm..

First quarrel started between mum and aunt over aunt accusation of mum oweing her money but we have not reach destination so haven pay her cab fare..

Reach KL at 6 plus.. It was raining.. slight flood.. Looked for hotel.. ended up in Replica Inn Chinatown.. RM 128 per night.. Stayed in room 405.. Not a nice hotel.. Old old de.. And no housekeeping makes us angry.. So changed to room 305 the 2nd night.. Stupid right? They said need to request de.. And the toilet flush is spoilt.. The bulb also spoilt so I called them and they came up to change the bulb.. Rather unpleasant stay there..

Went Petaling street for dinner.. Eat chicken rice recommended by aunt.. Not that nice..

Met up with cousin who lives in KL.. Aunt spent her time having tea with her daughter.. And gave her son-in-law RM100 for petrol.. She's always giving her children money.. They always lend money from her too.. All 3 children.. Haiz.. She never remembers how she beg grandma for money to see doctor when she's poor.. Where are her children when she needs them? Dun understand her..

Shop there till around 11.. Bought singlets and wallet for uncle.. As for me, bought 2 pair of shorts.. Mum bought facial masks..

Went back hotel starting my horror.. haha.. Aunt n mum took turn snoring making me unable to sleep the whole night.. Such a torture.. And I'm having flu.. Perhaps cos of the air-con.. Aunt keep asking me to apply ointment.. Which I refused..

Tuesday: Woke up at 8 plus.. Went to have dim sum for breakfast.. Not nice.. Then went KLCC, Times Square etc.. Bought hairbands.. Shop around till 5 plus went back to KLCC and went up Patronas Twin tower 41st storey bridge after a 3-D introductiory film.. Nice view..

Angry over taxi fare cos aunt scolded me for asking the price.. When I ask the price it's cheaper u know! Stupid her.

My mum got a free make-up @ times square.. It's not nice la.. Green eyeshadow.. And aunt keep saying my mum is fat etc.. Can't stand her criticism.. Furious. Anyway bought makeup remover sheets for mum @ RM12.90..

At night went Petaling street again.. Eat Fried hor fun etc for dinner.. Mum bought a bag @ RM50.. Go there u must really bargain.. Cos they will say it costs RM 100 plus..

Went back hotel sleep.. another night keep woken up by aunt's snoring.. haiz..

Wednesday: Woke up at 8 plus.. Went for breakfast at 9 plus.. Eat porridge.. quite ok..

Then went Puduraya bus terminal.. aunt bought tickets @ RM 40 each.. When we came it's only RM 16 lor..

Super angry that we ended up in Tuas checkpioint then went golden mile.. Took bus 100 from opp and then MRT from Kallang back to woodlands and took 962 home.. Walau.. My bag is super heavy lor.. Fuck lor.. Stand all the way.. And of cos aunt buay paiseh got seat la.. Old ma.. But poor me n mum stood for an hour..Board the bus at 12pm and reach home at 8 plus.. Can u believe that?!

And at wdl mrt aunt said why i wear sleeveless later complain flu again.. It was warm lor.. Even more angry with her.. Her tone.. Haiz.. Hate her lor..

These past 3 days.. Really suffered.. She's full of negative comments.. She's super losoh and naggy repeating things ovr and over and everything must listen to her.. Act like expert but always lead the wrong way and doubt me when I lead the way back to hotel.. Can't stand her!! Everywhere she go she will talk to strangers and tell them I'm going to be missy at kkh etc.. Crazy lor.. And she can't bear to come back to s'pore even though she say not nice to shop.. Dunno why.. When mum bathing.. She asked me is it me or mum who wanna go home.. Is it cos mum no money and stingy so dun wanna stay longer.. So I told her both of us dun wanna stay a day longer.. Cos I did not sleep well with their snoring and we've shopped almost all there is.. Very bored le.. I was exasperated yet still need to respect cannot show my anger.. Haiz..

So in conclusion, I didn't enjoy this trip.. And I'll dun wish to be her niece.. My mum also suffered under her for years.. From young she dotes on her children but not my mum.. Ask mum do housework etc.. Super calculative when it comes to mum.. Mum's brother dotes on mum she super jealous.. last time grandma buy things for brother she flare up.. OMG.. I dunno why mum has such a sister.. And my brother sympathises on aunt for having unfilial children.. He even bought her watch and hat on mother's day.. Faint.. I never complain to bro abt her la.. perhaps I should make him understand that she's stupid is her problem.. She loves her children so much so that even if they scold her.. even if her son dun work and steal her money she also continue to dote on them that's her problem already..

Anyway last night bf came over with my dinner.. So sweet of him.. But he's tired cos preparing for exercise next week.. Haiz.. Can tell that he never miss me as much as I miss him.. Sianz..

Chatted with Dav last night.. Complaint to him.. Yup Thanks for listening.. Since bf unwilling to hear my complaints.. Dun blame bf too.. Cos he's tired.. Slightly disappointed though..

Today: Woke up at around 2pm.. Missing bf now..

Will be missing him..

Yesterday went Woodlands point play pool with bf.. 1 hour $7.20.. Played 3 rounds won only the last round..

Then meet chun, kat, joey, ya wen @ CWP Iciban for dinner.. Followed by chit-chat session @ Mos burger.. Loves them.. Never-ending Laughter..

Then went home meet bf.. He slept over..

Today went dentist.. Bf pei me.. Then we join mum n uncle for breakfast.. Then went home sleep.. Play psp whole afternoon and went dinner with mum n uncle.. Just met up with bf downstairs..

Tomorrow going KL with mum and aunt.. Will be back either wed or thurs ba..

I'm a simple girl..

Woke up at 9 plus and pei bf to NUH for his Med appt.. Then went SIM open house with him so that he can show them his original cert.. Then went Suntec for IT fair.. And went sunplaza buy dinner and bus-ed home.. At night watch tv.. A day pei-ing him.. Cos I love him..

A day out..

Today went bowling @ Orchid country club with Fung n Xueling.. Then went Northpoint jalan jalan n timezone to play basketball etc..

At night meet bf go IMM to collect my contact lens and have BK for dinner.. He saw his friend and this time he didn't run away but talk to him with me by his side.. Perhaps I no longer need to be hidden.. Maybe he's willing to give me my status.. No matter wad.. I love him..

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person,but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Just read Norin's blog.. And my feeling is haiz.. Relationship can be so brittle.. Why did he fell for someone like that suddenly and decided to get married and have baby with her? It's just so scary that someone could change suddenly.. Hope Norin will pick herself up.. Learn from her mistake and live on well.. I know deep down she's still hurt.. Nobody actually recover 100%.. There's a scar that will never ever disappear.. Just have to learn to live with it.. Same goes with wanling.. They deserve better.. Jiayou everyone..

Love is like heaven, but it can hurt like hell.

Love is like a war...easy to start....hard to end...impossible to forget..

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything.

Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.

Love makes life so confusing, but without love would you really want to live?

I hate love for what it does to me when it ends, but I love the way I feel once I'm in it.

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry?

Games..

Tues: Bf came over with my dinner as usual.. Slept at 3 plus cos wanna finish the HK drama..

Wed: Play games the whole day.. He broke my record in pool so I tried hard.. But can't break his record YET..

He's been missed..

Met up with bf for a few minutes downstairs to pass him something only..

Miss him the whole night..

Was reading newspaper and magazine.. And I like the channel U 10pm show..

Just watched Bedtime story.. Rate it a 2.5 stars.. Also watch batman begins halfway..

Going to sleep now.. Yawn*

P.S: Uncle got me a new mattress..

Lack of guy friends.. haha..

Chatted with David over the phone for alomost 2 hours last night.. It's been like 2 years plus since I last met him.. Haha.. And that's the only time I met up with him.. Lolz..

Throughout my years of education I never contact dun mention going out with guys.. Except group outing.. Haha.. Perhaps cos they think I'm just so far away from them.. In upper sec I dun even play with guys anymore.. Perhaps cos my class always lack of guys.. Pri n sec is like that.. Poly even worse..

So the only guy friends I have are those I knew online and from work I guess.. And I never go out with them anymore.. Is it cos I'm attached? Or cos I dun want to?

I once said that the best way to prevent unfaithful is to stay away from it..

And this leads to my bf weird behaviour.. When he's in poly he goes out with his poly friends.. when he works in zoo or lemongrass, he goes out with his colleagues.. But when he graduate and quits, he'll no longer go out with them despite their invitations.. I really cannot understand.. Bcos I'm just so different.. I love going out with friends.. I organise gatherings.. Why is he so sociable when he's in it but once he's out he's totally indifferent?

Though I dun understand my bf.. So many differences.. So weird.. But I love him anyway..

I've learnt to accept.. I'm still trying my best in my relationship.. Sometimes I feel so xin fu.. Sometimes I feel so stupid to be with this guy who is so hard to understand.. So hard to reach for..

And to kat.. Thanks for hating him when he hurt me.. Thanks for saying he's handsome as long as he loves me.. I know he loves me now.. Much more compared to when we stead the first year.. But well he's still him.. I dun cry over trying hard to accept him le.. I know I can always go out there and find someone much better but no one is perfect.. So I'll still stick to my choice..

Love is about imperfections.. Trying to change him is like turning him to myself.. Which means I only love myself not him..

Dating is always fun..

Went IMM today with bf!! Hehe.. Treat him to Fish & Co.. Spent around $34..

He left my Giant plastic bag containing Ferrero Rocher, Hello Panda and 4 rechargeable batteries at the seat.. Almost half an hour then I asked him where are my things.. So we went back to take.. Lolz.. I laughed at him the whole day cos the waitress asked wad plastic bag and his answer is NORMAL plastic bag.. haha.. So I told her a Giant plastic bag.. Hehe.. My bf is soo cute la.. Endless laughter with him..

And when I came back.. It's such a coincidence lor.. My mum bought 2 batteries to replace the lost ones!!

Anyway bought 1 yr supply of acuvue clear instead of Freshkon which I wanna try cos my $40 voucher expires end of this month and can only buy clear disposable lens..

Love is great..

Thursday: He came over at night to pei me..

Friday: Went Sheng Siong with family then went orchard to meet bf walk walk and watched Watchmen.. rate it a 2.5 stars ba.. M18 for sexual and violence.. Quite boring at first.. Too draggy..

Saturday: Went to Iri's N Jeff's Chalet as they ROM on 6th March.. Happy for them.. And thanks Er Kee for helping me fix the problem of the PSP being lag..

Bf wait for me @ 962 bus stop as I told him I'll take bus 168 but ended up taking 969 as I can't find the bus stop for 168 @ Tampines.. I alighted at Admiralty and walked home.. So I call him when I reach home.. He came up and we watched Meet Dave.. I'll rate it a 3.5 stars.. It's really funny!! He slept over.. Loves..

Anyway I was really lost when I'm alone at an unfamiliar place searching for the main road bus stop of 168.. My hp battery was flat.. Haiz.. I guess even though I'm turing 20.. I'm still not independent.. I hate being alone.. Is it bcos of my childhood? I realised the importance of HP!

Waiting for my boy..

Went JB with family again for makan and jalan jalan..

Now waiting for bf to come and pei me..

Step up

Just watched Step up in tudou.. Rate it a 3 stars..

Missing him lots..

Gonna go to bed now..

Happy 2 years 11 months anniversary..

Quarrelled with bf over a stupid lie he made long long time ago.. One that bothered me for soo long.. Haiz.. Can't stand being with a liar.. He's a weirdo.. Yet I love him.. So I must be weird too..

Today: went ICA with him for passport extension, Oath taking.. He sent his application to SIM for RMIT business accounting.. Oh I'm working soon and he's going to go back to student life.. He listened to me and chose part time so that he can work..

I'm afraid our relationship will be affected by our busy different lives.. But still I wanna believe our love is strong.. Girls pls stay away from my bf.. He's MINE! Not that he's that great that many girls wanna snatch.. Hehe.. But Some girls just love to snatch people's bf ma.. Lolz.. And my bf is attractive in his own way..

Test date is on 17th April..

Yesterday went Lot 1 with bf from 3 plus to 6 plus.. Then went home watch HK drama till around 1am..

Today went driving - Compulsory Auto lesson.. Generally driving well.. But still not good in lane changing.. Feel that I like manual more than auto.. Haha.. Is it cos I'm used to the clutch and gear changing already?

Anyway just booked several revision lessons and driving test on 17th April 1pm.. Wish me luck!

Empty..

Watched Bangkok dangerous last night with bf till 2 plus.. Rate it a 3 stars..

Still unhappy that the 3 of them got to go back ward 56 but not me.. Haiz.. Suay or wad?

Alone at home now.. Just eat honey star and milo for breakfast cum lunch.. Feeling moody..