So bad lor..

My bf just now sms me say he not going home tonight.. So I called him immediately for fear that no reception again.. And he said he today, tmr and fri not coming back cos exercise end late like 10 pm.. I was so upset lor.. Then I asked him where is he cos the background sounds noisy unlike camp.. He said in train.. Walau! My hearing is so good lor.. I was suspecting the background is train liao lor.. So I hung up on him then he called me back.. SUPER BAD MAN!! He said wanna surprise me.. Rubbish lor.. Hai me sad for nth.. Anyway he said he not going home but coming straight to meet me cos last nite never meet.. So I asked him buy Roti Prata for me and mum for dinner. Hehe.. I love him!!

Perhaps..

Last night I sms him after work that dun tell me u r not coming over tonight cos that's the last thing I wanna hear.. And he really didn't meet me.. So I ate Maggi Mee for dinner..

Tears rolled down my face when I lie in bed wanting to chat with him.. It was 9 plus and he rather watch stupid show than talk to me..

And he sms me that he's always very irrtated by me whenever he dun wanna meet me.. He said I know he's at home and doing wad, so why can't i loosen the string a little.. So I slept. After 45 min my mum was talking loudly on the phone with her brother which woke me up... So I called him cos I dun remember we were 'arguing'. Upon the 3rd ring then I remember I'm not supposed to irritate him so i hung up. He called me back and we talk for a min and I said bye and hung up.

I woke up with single eyelid cos of crying last nite I guess.. But recovered as I took mrt.. Those who know me will know that before 18 I've double eyelid when I'm crying, sick or tired.. Then now is usually double eyelid but will be single eyelid when my eyes are swollen.. It's very obvious so it's embarrassing when I go to school with single eyelid.. Heex.. And Xueling very funny yesterday cos she suddenly say hey I got one good news for u.. Ur eyes grew much bigger as from poly yr 1.. Lolz.. I know that it grew bigger but not so much la..

Anyway this morning I called him for nothing then chat for 3 min... He just called me to say he'll be home late tonight.. Which implies he'll not be meeting me again I guess...

Anyway today the staff nurse never let me serve medicaton cos she probably think she will serve faster w/o needing to supervise me.. Sian diao lor.. So whole day change diapers, bathe patients, take parameters.. Busy day. But at least i served ventolin w/o any supervision...

Tomorrow is afternoon shift so tonight can sleep more le..

P.S.: He just dun understand that a busy day of boring and tiring work, he's my only motivation.. Haiz.. I accept him for who he is.. I never bothered to ever ask him intro frens or family to me.. And I wish he'll accept the fact that i dun get sick of meeting him day and night.. When we first started we meet at least 7 times a week lor..