Hurt

Haiz.. really wondering how can I be in this relationship for 3 yrs 3 mths plus..

Today he told me he saw his ex at SIM.. And from his ex fren he found out that she graduating from UOL..

I was really upset that he still cares..

I was angry, but disappointment and sadness overwhelmed me.. After he followed me walking aimlessly at junction 8.. My tears finally came down when we were eating at pizza hut.. because I very xin teng him looking so pitiful trying to coax me.. But deep down I wondered if he ever xin teng me.. Have he ever feel the ache when he look at me.. A girl who was hurt by him for countless times..

He can find out abt her cos they have common sec sch frens.. And wad do i have? Today he told me he going out with his army frens instead of meeting me for dinner.. I angry that's why he pei me and reject them unwillingly.. Can't he just bring me along? I really dun understand..

That day his family came to KKH CE OBS 2.. I was the one in-charge of them.. My heart was thumping.. I was very distracted.. But my bf just said they dun even know u.. Ya that's right.. Then why let me know them? They are FON.. they are just some china people who are irritating.. Frowning all the way.. I am in fact scared of them.. Not looking forward to knowing them at all..

Why am I still loving him? How much does he really love me?