Lack of guy friends.. haha..

Chatted with David over the phone for alomost 2 hours last night.. It's been like 2 years plus since I last met him.. Haha.. And that's the only time I met up with him.. Lolz..

Throughout my years of education I never contact dun mention going out with guys.. Except group outing.. Haha.. Perhaps cos they think I'm just so far away from them.. In upper sec I dun even play with guys anymore.. Perhaps cos my class always lack of guys.. Pri n sec is like that.. Poly even worse..

So the only guy friends I have are those I knew online and from work I guess.. And I never go out with them anymore.. Is it cos I'm attached? Or cos I dun want to?

I once said that the best way to prevent unfaithful is to stay away from it..

And this leads to my bf weird behaviour.. When he's in poly he goes out with his poly friends.. when he works in zoo or lemongrass, he goes out with his colleagues.. But when he graduate and quits, he'll no longer go out with them despite their invitations.. I really cannot understand.. Bcos I'm just so different.. I love going out with friends.. I organise gatherings.. Why is he so sociable when he's in it but once he's out he's totally indifferent?

Though I dun understand my bf.. So many differences.. So weird.. But I love him anyway..

I've learnt to accept.. I'm still trying my best in my relationship.. Sometimes I feel so xin fu.. Sometimes I feel so stupid to be with this guy who is so hard to understand.. So hard to reach for..

And to kat.. Thanks for hating him when he hurt me.. Thanks for saying he's handsome as long as he loves me.. I know he loves me now.. Much more compared to when we stead the first year.. But well he's still him.. I dun cry over trying hard to accept him le.. I know I can always go out there and find someone much better but no one is perfect.. So I'll still stick to my choice..

Love is about imperfections.. Trying to change him is like turning him to myself.. Which means I only love myself not him..