Another day off gone just like that..

Met Sing Ee for badminton in the afternoon.. Played for an hour.. Very long never play with her le.. Reminds me of our pri and sec sch days.. 8 years of friendship..



Met bf at Jurong east and went Dhoby Ghaut with him cos he meeting someone from ebay to buy stuff..

Had dinner at plaza singapura and then back home.. Super sian..

Haiz..

Bf came at 7 plus and went home at 10 plus.. I'm missing him already..

Feeling sianz.. Having pimple outbreak cos of period, late nights etc.. And gained 2 kg cos of increase appetite.. My tummy isn't flat anymore.. My hair isn't straight anymore..

Already 4th week of PRCP le.. Hope it ends soon but also hope my working life dun come so soon.. Truthfully I'm tired of nursing after these 3 yrs of attachments..

Tired of shift work.. Thinking of 1 day off per week (and not weekend) and only $1550basic pay I'm super sian.. Already thinking I'll leave this career which i chose when everyone objects after my 2 yr bond..

Very sad to say this but I've got no ambition, no interest.. I dunno wad lies ahead in my future.. I'm not scared but just sianz.. I had plans but now I'm giving up my plans as reality is different from expectations..

My mindset had changed.. I used to think that the most important criteria in a job is interest (I had thought that nursing is intersting, but now I find it a routine which bores me.. I dun get the satisfaction I'm looking for..)

Now wad I think is that in reality, a job is just something u hav to go through to survive.. U r happy not bcos of the job itself but bcos when u earn money u can buy wad u want, u can go where u wanna go with who u wanna be with..

1 day to my 2 yr 8 mths anniversary with bf.. I'm glad to have him around but getting tired of relationship also..

I'm contented but not truly happy.. I dunno why.. I dunno when I lost my enthusiaism for everything..

Time really flies.. Looking back, I see myself different.. I see everyone different.. Growing up is a process that is making me feel I've lost myself.. More and more responsibilities.. Less and less time for enjoyment..

Although I dun exactly have a very happy childhood.. I wish I'm always a child..