Ming Li's world

Off days r too little!!

2009-10-11T18:10:00.007+08:00

Went thru the torturing 4 nights after my leave..

Friday was sleeping day.. Met bf only for awhile at night.. He’s soo busy.. Dun like guys in Uni.. Lolz..

Saturday went Cine sing K lunch with Soh Hwee, Zhi Wei, Zhi Qiang, David, Jun Yuan N Sam from 12 to 4.. I love to sing.. Met up with bf at 7 plus for dinner @ pastamania..

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Today super slack.. Went dentist @ around 10.. Dentist asked me is there anything I wanna change, if not can remove le.. And so I look at my teeth N told him the centre midline not aligned.. And wad I got is 2 rubber bands.. And 1 wk later for another appt.. N I slept from 12 plus to 5 plus.. Haha.. Dunno y so exhausted..

Now waiting for bf to finish project at ard 7 plus N then can dinner with him again..

I can’t wait for my braces to be out

3 years 6 months anniversary..

2009-10-04T22:08:00.004+08:00

Today whole day rot at home.. This is how I spent my last day of leave of the year.. Haiz..

Anyway @ 6 drove to Chong Pang for dinner.. Today drive there okay okay.. Better than yesterday drove Fung to Causeway point.. Cos Yest was like 1 1/2 months never drive..

When driving back it's already night time N raining.. Like a challenge..

Anyway afternoon watched Bride war on PPS.. Not bad la.. Quite touching.. But I still dun feel like getting married.. haha.. So many people ask me when I getting married.. My ideal age is 23 to 26..

Now feeling down cos whole day bf do project at home.. Then now his project mates is at his house doing project.. Haiz.. Why everyone can go his house but not me? I need a normal bf..

More pictures

2009-10-02T17:01:00.007+08:00

Yesterday went to rebond my hair at City Square so didn't meet up with Celest N Fung..

Just now went Lot 1 to meet Celest to transfer the pics while eating MOS burger..

These r some of the pics..

Bintan trip

2009-10-01T20:06:00.022+08:00

Busy having fun..

2009-09-30T19:43:00.014+08:00

Hey hey! Miss me? Haha.. Or no one remembers my blog? hehe..

Been a long long time since I last update my blog..

And here goes.. This month I'm busy with work n dating I guess..

And I wanna upload pics!! hehe..

There's this day when I went marina square with bf.. We used 10 dollars N couldn't get this Hello Kitty! So sad la.. I will never play these kinda machines anymore! Waste money to buy sadness..

Last sunday went to pick up my mum @ changi Airport..

Anyway I went Bintan 3 days with celest N Fung! It's fun! Let the photos tell u ba!

Tmr going to rebond my hair then meet celest etc @ Far east for the pics..

Pics will be at my next post..

Laughing with my frens..

2009-09-06T02:05:00.004+08:00

Today is a day without my bf..

Went chinatown with fung n celest for dim sum brunch, booking Bintan trip 28th to 30th Sept, sing K, dinner @ pizza hut (PS)..

My 20th birthday!

2009-08-17T15:17:00.011+08:00

First at 12mn.. My sec sch friends came to my house into my room with a cake singing birthday song..

They had planned this surprise but too bad clever me already knew it.. Hehe..

They went home at 1 plus n i slept at 3 plus.. Woke up at 4.45 with a morning call by Zhi Wei.. prepared n my bf came over.. We took cab to golden mile and started out day to desaru..

We went ostrich farm, fruit farm n lastly took a boat to see the fireflies..

Reach admiralty @ 11 plus at night to meet my mum.. And met chun.. We walked home.. I bathed n reach orchard at 2 plus in the morning.. Went Mac have a drink n some fries.. Met up with Bro n his gf.. Went to watch 'where got ghost?'..

Reach home around 7 plus in the morning.. Finally can sleep..

Woke up at 9 plus went dentist n then home to sleep..

Woke up 5pm n drove to causeway point with mum, uncle n bf..

N today woke up at 12 plus.. eat n online.. going off to work @ 4.30pm.. Oh so sad my leave is over..

I passed!!

2009-08-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! Finally! I can drive le!

My 6 days leave..

2009-08-12T01:05:00.015+08:00

Hmm.. had my 4 nights of work then began my leave on 7th to 16th august..

On 9th august i went near the stadium to watch the big screen n fireworks live.. Cos every year couldn't get the NDP tickets.. i wore red n white cos I'm patriotic! haha.. Yup I love singapore!

Then on 10th I went malacca 1-day trip..

Just wanna share the pics..

More pics..

2009-07-29T02:21:00.005+08:00

Can't bear for it to end soo fast..

2009-07-29T01:06:00.013+08:00

Just wanna upload pics of these few days..

Anyway today went City square with mum n bf.. Then uncle join us to go to Sutera mall..

After which met up with Xueling (SGH O&G OT) n Lee Fung (NHC ward 56).. hehe.. Went orchard..

Oh leave is over too soon..

2009-07-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

Friday I went to city hall with my darling.. He explained that he had wanted to meet his campmate cos he need his help to change his army testi.. He was unhappy with it..

Anyway he sold his hp @ $470.. He'll be buying a new hp when I sign up for starhub next month.. Cos my singtel plan will end 16th august..

These few days I go dating with my bf every day..

Thursday i went Orchard.. Ate Ashton for dinner..

Sat I went for uncle n his sister birthday celebration @ a condo..

Yesterday went vivo then sentosa!! Had fun with my honey..

Today went Tampines.. A rainy day..

Tomorrow last day le.. Oh man! Going JB with mum n bf then meet fung, xl n celest @ chinatown for dinner to discuss n book our tioman trip.. Long time nv see them le..

Popular dental = liars..

2009-07-22T14:26:00.002+08:00

My appointment for dental is on 12th july.. They usually will call to remind me.. But they didn't so I thought it was 19th.. And on 19th I called them.. The stupid girl said they called but I off my hp.. She said 'starhub is unable to get a response.."

Firstly I never off hp de.. Secondly I'm using singtel.. Thirdly I never get any missed call or caller alert.. 1 week n they didn't call me to fix another appointment? wad kinda service is that?

i was already unhappy that there was once when I went there just to know that my dentist is away.. And the dentist told me it'll cost $3800 to $4200.. But it's actually $4700..

See? Full of lies.. Irresponsible.

Anyway something good to share! After tonight I'll be on leave.. 23rd to 28th july I am free!!

Am I happy?

2009-07-12T15:56:00.003+08:00

Now I'm sleepy.. 2nd night is over.. tonight is the last.. today got a colleague wedding but I didn't go cos I slept till 3 plus from 10am after bathing..

Hmmm.. I'm still with my bf.. Never break up for a long time le.. Quarrel n just make up lor.. He's still good to me..

Hmmm.. Just wanna tell u all not to worry for me.. Even though I failed TP for the third time.. And getting tipsy didn't help to blow away the sadness..

Okay.. I go sleep le.. Good night to me..

Hurt

2009-07-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

Haiz.. really wondering how can I be in this relationship for 3 yrs 3 mths plus..

Today he told me he saw his ex at SIM.. And from his ex fren he found out that she graduating from UOL..

I was really upset that he still cares..

I was angry, but disappointment and sadness overwhelmed me.. After he followed me walking aimlessly at junction 8.. My tears finally came down when we were eating at pizza hut.. because I very xin teng him looking so pitiful trying to coax me.. But deep down I wondered if he ever xin teng me.. Have he ever feel the ache when he look at me.. A girl who was hurt by him for countless times..

He can find out abt her cos they have common sec sch frens.. And wad do i have? Today he told me he going out with his army frens instead of meeting me for dinner.. I angry that's why he pei me and reject them unwillingly.. Can't he just bring me along? I really dun understand..

That day his family came to KKH CE OBS 2.. I was the one in-charge of them.. My heart was thumping.. I was very distracted.. But my bf just said they dun even know u.. Ya that's right.. Then why let me know them? They are FON.. they are just some china people who are irritating.. Frowning all the way.. I am in fact scared of them.. Not looking forward to knowing them at all..

Why am I still loving him? How much does he really love me?

I don't like iso!

2009-07-03T15:27:00.002+08:00

I'm now working.. Alone in the CE annex waiting for security to escort my patients up to the wards.. 1 H1N1 positive, 1 suspect.. Haiz.. Waited for more than half an hour.. Bored to death..

Long time never blog.. Nothing much to say..

Today went driving revision before work.. Tuesday will be my 3rd try.. Pray hard for me that I pass..

I'm still in love with him..

2009-06-22T15:07:00.009+08:00

Long time never blog.. Dunno wad to start with..

Life is still the same i guess.. Work work work.. Lolz.. The only thing I enjoy is dating..

Well work was okay.. Got scolding from sister that day when I was in isolation.. Yup with the H1N1 cases.. But later she apologised to me.. Cos it's not my fault..

Oh and that day went changi airport to send my friends off..

Hmmm.. Just upload some pics of me with my bf ba.. Though he is boring n not romantic.. Though we quarrel at times.. I love him more than u can ever imagine.. And he brings laughter..

Finding meaning to life..

2009-06-12T13:40:00.004+08:00

Today is my off day after 10 consecutive days of working.. Really tired.. Wonder is it physically or emotionally..

Went swimming with mum last night.. It's been years since I last swam.. haha.. Woodlands baby pool now has got a slide.. It's meant for below 12 only.. So when I climb up the lifeguard whistle at me.. And guess wad? I heck care n slide down.. hehe.. Since already been whistle why should I climb down right?! Haha.. That's me.. I rather take the risk than miss the fun.. Dun care how people look at me..

Anyway went Tampines megastoreS with bf on monday after work.. Love dating..

Life have been kinda routine.. work n sleep.. Miss the freedom in poly.. Miss having 5 day week.. I dun like shift work; I dun like 6 days of working!

Seriously I dun mind the work in children's emergency.. Colleagues are fine too.. Except that day when I was late for a course n sister started scolding not only me but the SSN n everyone blame me.. Nobody came forward to hold on to the trache tube when I wanna send the patient up n the SN who went with me said, 'I go up with her'. Not I go, U stay.. When sister ask of course I never tell her that.. I just said sorry lor.. Sometimes it's no point defending urself.. I was really angry with all of them defending themselves.. They were just crowding around talking n they defended themselves by saying they didn't ask me go it's I wanna go..

And there's this mother who very attitude.. When I pronounce her daughter's name as lo-vette.. She said,' Walan. LO-vette?" So I asked so how do U pronounce her name? And her reply was do u say I LO u? It's love-vette.. SOOOOOOOOOOO irritaing la! I feel like saying fuck u! Who ask u give such a stupid name spelled lovette.. Idiot!

And yes I love morning shift bcos I can meet my bf.. Afternoon shift only get $2.50 extra.. Which is nothing to me.. I changed 2 sunday morning to afternoon, a sunday off to thursday off.. But I refused a change of tuesday morning to afternoon led to complaining.. Why are people like that? Must I change even if I dun like it? But anyway I changed.. My bf is right.. I am just too kind.. It's not bcos she told another colleague that I dun wanna change.. It's cos I see that she is despo to change.. Wadeva..

Perhaps it's cos my bf said I thought Ming Li is very easy to get along one? Oh darling.. Dun think of me as Miss popular or Miss nice can? I'm just human.. I'm not as good or as clever as U think I am.. 3 years 2 months plus le.. U should know me better than that..

Okay.. I'll never finish with complaining about some unhappy things..

And yup I failed my TP again on 1st June.. Next test will be on 7th july.. Wish me luck.. Yup I was really really upset.. But after a cry, I'm fine.. It's just luck I guess..

Ming Li will never be perfect.. But she's striving on..

P.S: I'll not be a nurse for life! I've decided to change my career after my 2 years bond.. I wanna be a Pri teacher (my childhood dream).. But many things can happen in these 1 year 9 months plus.. I'll still be me.. I shall not care about objections.. 3 years ago.. Nobody agree on my choice of choosing nursing.. But I'm still hanging on.. For the $22,000 bond.. haha.. Maybe my prince will appear and take me away?

Loving..

2009-06-01T12:08:00.012+08:00

Graduated on 26th may '09..

Last night bf meet me @ novena to go home with me after my work.. So sweet of him..

Today is my off day as requested..

Nothing much to blog.. Just wanna upload pictures..

Medication error..

2009-05-24T11:24:00.002+08:00

Thursday went orchard with bf.. Watched Night at the museum 2... Rate it a 3.5 stars..

The long john silver new deep sea grilled fish is not nice..

Friday worked till 10pm cos very busy.. And Saturday came the news of the boy who was allergic to brufen.. I was the one who served the medication.. But I never do anything wrong.. The doctor who ordered dunno that he has allergy.. And the procedure form shows that he has none.. And I asked father he said dun have..

I feel bad that the boy developed anaphylactic shock and was sent to high dependency ward..

I wrote memo for sister to write incident report.. The boy had allergic reactions last year.. So the form should show.. And the father should know! The father said no to the question to the doctor and to me.. So the doctor and me are not to be blamed right?

Anyway hope the boy is fine..

Last night bf came over and we watched X-men wolverine origins.. rate iot a 3.5 stars too..

Later going to work.. It's supposed to be my off day.. But changed with friend cos she need it.. Yup bf say i so stupid.. haha..

Wish me luck in everything k!

He's my one n only..

2009-05-19T11:36:00.002+08:00

bf met me downstairs last night from 10 plus to 11 plus.. Hugs and kisses.. 5 days never meet is soooo long.. But record is 13 days (during his BMT).. and 8 days (when he went china)..

Anyway he will take off on wed and thurs!! Yeah! Thurs is my off day so I can go dating with him le.. And I wanna watch Night at the museum..

I'm loving my bf.. Yup though I've lotsa complaints.. He's still my choice.. U can think of me as silly.. But as long as I'm happy, I know I have ur blessings..

Going off to work soon..

I still love my bf..

2009-05-17T10:44:00.009+08:00

Been working.. Never meet bf cos he's busy with exercise which will end only next friday.. I'm missing him lots..

Yesterday is my off day.. A saturday w/o my bf is horrible..

Went orchard with mummy shop shop.. Wanna buy heels for graduation but couldn't find one that I like and is formal.. Haha.. Bought eyelash adhesive for $16.90 and mum bought the double eyelid sticker.. Haha..

After which meet Jia Yuan as he said he got 2 free eng wah tickets.. We took 962 to Sun Plaza just to realise it's closed!!! So we went to Xin Wang HK cafe for dinner then go Sembawang Shopping Centre walk walk.. I reached home around 11pm..

Didn't sleep well the whole night.. Kept waking up.. Wished my bf is by my side..

Later working afternoon shift.. Hope to see bf tomorrow..

Today..

2009-05-13T22:35:00.004+08:00

Worked from 7 to 2.30pm.. Uncle drove me home..

Went dental.. Already spent $3865 on my braces.. Then found out that I need to pay another $900!!! Faint.. He said $3800 to $4200 now become $4765.. How can like that? I dun understand but I didn't ask.. Haiz.. Plus last time X-ray n extraction means my teeth is costing me more than $5K!!!

Met bf awhile downstairs.. His last exerceise started.. So sian..

Photos taken these few weeks..

2009-05-13T18:35:00.006+08:00

Wad's wrong with Ming Li?

2009-05-11T23:12:00.002+08:00

Feeling super down now.. No more tears though..

Started working in CE for a month.. Adapting well I guess..

Yup got scolding from parent.. Made a stupid mistake and report to work at 7am instead of 1.30pm.. Small matters I guess..

Super sian with working life.. 1 day off a week.. rotating shift.. bf complaining of weekends w/o me.. Yes I regretted my choice.. But a 16 yr old choosing a career is like that de ma.. I was wrong to choose nursing when the whole world told me not to.. But it's okay.. I'll at least finish my bond in 2011.. I'm surviving.. No worries..

As for relationship, I thought I've accepted him for who he is.. But realised it's too hard to love him the way he is.. Walking past his parents made me feel awkward and I'll look away.. His friend called him saying wanna meet me makes me sad.. Saying he wanna have a facebook account reminds me of friendster incident.. Whenever he dun wanna meet me, bad memories were recalled.. Just had a 10 min cry.. Let's hope no swollen eyes tomorrow though I've got no plans for tmr's off day..

3 years plus of complaining and suffering is soo boring.. This relationship is full of disappointment.. Wish I can start over again.. I want someone normal.. who'll bring me home, who'll bring me out with his friends.. I dunno whether to wait for my prince to appear or wait for him to change.. wait for him to help me let go of the past by giving me a future..

When people ask, yup I'm in my first relationship which has lasted 3 yrs plus.. sounds so xin fu.. yet it's not.. Yes it's sweet when we go dating.. full of laughter.. But he's sleeping with his hp switched off now ignoring my cries.. Wad am I supposed to do with this kinda 'love'? Tired.. Yet not letting go..

No pictures for this post.. Simply lazy to post pic.. anyway its just a few pics taken on sunday when I meet up with my long-time friends.. Had lotsa laughter with them eating sakae sushi..

Ming Li no longer take pictures frequently.. She's changed.. Cos happiness forgotten her..

Save me.. I'm not suffering from depression YET.. I still blog means I'm still alive..

Already booked my 2nd attempt for driving test.. But didn't go for any lessons.. Ya perhaps I'll fail the 2nd time.. But my irregular work routine simply leaves me no chance for driving.. schedule come out 2 wks early but booking lessons need to be a month early nowadays..

Nothing is going well for me.. Since I stepped out of poly.. Life has changed.. Trying hard to be myself again.. The happy Ming Li.. laughter is short-lived now..

To kat etc, dun be surprised by such a depressed post.. I know U care.. I'm still the Ming Li who talk crap who laugh with U, I know I'm loved.. I love gatherings with u all.. It makes me forget unhappiness for awhile..

To poly frenz.. Perhaps I've not been putting in effort to keep our friendships going.. But I cherish the memories.. Thanks for making poly life great.. See u all on 26th (graduation)..

To end this post, I still love my family, my friends and him.. I'll love myself more.. Wait for me.. Ming Li will be back..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MAY!! May all wishes come true!

Abandoned blog..

2009-05-03T11:43:00.002+08:00

Okay.. Didn't have the mood to blog.. And it's been a long time since I last took pictures..

Wad's there to say.. Hmmm.. Besides work..

Thursday: Went out with chun to bugis.. We conquered the street using 4 hours.. And I spent $70 on a dress, a vest, 2 tops, a pair of shorts, 3 fake eyelashes.. Very long never go on shopping spree le.. And I chose those cheap but nice clothes k!

Friday: Went Kallang Leisure park, then Geylang then Bugis with bf.. Dating is no longer fun with laughter.. Quarrel..

Yesterday: Work till 9.30pm.. Wanna meet bf but he refused and said I am irritating.. Disappointed in him..

Today: Working afternoon shift again.. Super sick of him..

Won't be updating soon.. Perhaps this blog will change into a place where I type rubbish to vent my anger only..

Happiness should not be taken for granted..

2009-04-19T12:40:00.001+08:00

Lazy to blog.. simple girl with a simple life.. Wad's so interesting to blog?

Fail

2009-04-17T15:09:00.002+08:00

Last week to this week is just work and meet bf lor.. Nothing much to say..

Just went for my TP and fail. Dun wanna elaborate. Wasted my no pay leave.. Money money money again..

I am sad.

Lazy to blog leh..

2009-04-10T12:30:00.002+08:00

Monday and tuesday and wednesday: Clinical practice.. Like Obs 2 more than Obs 1..

A SSN whom many people dislike asked me check the admission checklist.. And then portal asked me push the bed.. I didn't know I'll be sending up the patient alone! A post-fit patient.. Bed no oxygen tank.. Ward not called.. hey I dunno wad happen lo.. I thought just ask me help push bed.. anyway another SN saw and help me put oxygen tank and mask on bed.. And Frances (Ex-SEN, now SN) acc me up n told me be careful of the SSN who will sabo people.. Haiz.. Faint.. Anyway She criticised my bandaging though.. Well first time is like that de lor.. CE really lots of nurses..

Bf keep reminding me society is like that.. Beware of people.. Faint..

Tuesday: Went driving after work.. On the road was okay.. Circuit also not bad.. But then as darkness falls.. I was soo tired.. S course mount kerb, parallel parking dun remember turn which side.. Haha.. SO instructor ask me go home earlier.. And yup went home 10 min early.. I dun like to drive at nite..

Wedenesday half day is boring talks..

Thursday: Employee orientation programme.. Besides boring talks and videos.. There're games.. Quite fun.. And self-intro I said I lvoe dating for the qeustion soemthing interesting about urself.. Hehe.. just trying to be funny la..

Met up with kat @ Admiralty to collect the brownies I buy from her for her course thingy.. Show support ma.. Hehe.. Then meet bf @ woodlands go return his library books and bus-ed home.. At night he came over with dinner.. Sweet sweet love..

Later going bugis with bf!

Finally booked 2 revision lessons..

2009-04-05T12:58:00.003+08:00

Thursday: Learnt to use thermoscan dinamap, SaO2 monitor, bed, table, call bell and infusuion pump.. Which we already know n used for countless times.. Didn't join SNA nor KKH sports.. No meny, no time.. Hehe.. Then learnt about collection n labelling of specimens.. And a quiz on abbreviations.. The qiuz is like everyone tell each other the answer lo.. Meet bf at nite I think..

Friday: Lernt about the codes which we already learnt before.. Ergonomics which is boring.. Went to CE for prientation by sister.. Kinda brief.. learnt about charts.. Used before already.. Bascially many stuffs learnt during orientation is mostly relevant to ward setting only.. Seriously think they should ask CE and MOT people learn their stuff instead..

Sat: Went to CE for clinical practice.. Helped in topping up stuff like medications.. Then allocated to OBServation 1.. Took temp n O2 sat for patient.. Tested urine.. I feel soo much like a student wearing a staff nurse uniform.. Blur blur dunno where stuffs are kept.. Dunno wad to do.. Info overloaded.. Lack of confidence! Haiz..

4 plus meet bf go Jurong Point walk walk plus Zhou's kitchen buffet (Paid $60 plus).. Quite nice.. Movie Shinjuku Incident.. rate it a 3 stars ba.. Can't forget the scene where the face is cut and hand was cut.. Disgusting.. My tears flowed when the person said he want his hand.. Took cab home cos missed last train and last bus.. HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY!! Love him forever!

Sunday: No plans for today.. Tired.. Just managed to book 3.20 on 12 apr (sun).. bf also helped me book a 5.55 on 7 apr (tues).. 2 revison lessons should be okay ba.. Hope can pass the test next fri!!

Kill me..

2009-04-01T20:06:00.008+08:00

Forgot to mention wad I did for sat night n sunday.. Sat night bf came over and we watched Inkheart.. rate it a 2.5 stars.. Sunday went orchard with bf.. Then walked to Plaza singapura to eat Pizza hut..

Today: Another boring day with endless lectures on things we already learnt before.. Super sian!! And Sisiter Sin told me that Sister from CE not keen to let me change off days cos PH n sunday very busy I in uniform stand around not nice. And as for test date I can apply for no pay leave.. I'm super sad plus depressed over this.. W/o revision can I pass? Haiz.. faint.. I know I rarely say stress.. But this time round I feel stress all over.. New job, getting license wadeva.. My period is late for 6 days. I remembered it was late for 2 wks when I had conflict during my last projects.. Can't really remember other times when Ming Li complain of STRESS!! Dun worry I'll not commit suicide or anything.. Maybe I'll pass w/o revison? Save $$ right? Ok.. Even If fail, it's not the end of the world!! Not like got revise sure pass..

Rejected chun's date for movie tomorrow night.. Told her will be tiring.. But I guess I just lost enthusiasm ba.. Rejected Fung for sentosa wif xl n celest.. Cos sat is 3rd anniversary..

Finally can upload photos..

2009-03-31T19:37:00.004+08:00

Today is another day of boring orientation.. Powerpoints after powerpoints.. And perform 7 steps handwashing and don & remove gown n gloves..

I asked Sister Christine Sin for change of 3 day offs on 6th, 16th n 17th April (scheduled as clinical practice in CE).. To accomodate my driving revisions and test.. And her reply was driving has got nothing to do with nursing.. And I should've known and book lessons at night.. (She has a point here) She'll discuss with CE nurse clinician and get back to me.. Haiz..

First day of "work"

2009-03-30T19:44:00.002+08:00

Orientation programme will last for 2 months..

1st month will be Mon to fri from 0800 to 1630(Liten to boring lectures etc) or 0700 to 1530 (In ward for clinical).. Sat is 0800 to 1300.. Sunday is off..

2nd month is 6 day week: perform 2 shifts 0700 to 1500 or 1330 to 2130..

Today really have a hard time opening my eyes during lectures on dress code, professional etiqutte & conduct, line of communication and telephone Etiqutte.

And 2.5 hours of walking around KKH is supre tiring walking up n down the stairs..

Yeah!!

2009-03-28T18:34:00.002+08:00

Yesterday: Went to pay respect to my grandma.. Couldn't help crying.. She's passed away for alomost 6 yrs le.. But everytime I go I'll cry.. Cos I really miss her..

After which went AMK eat and then home to prepare and went out with bf..

Met him at CCK station n headed to AMK hub.. Went around looking at hp.. Decided to buy a brand-new W595 pink.. Cheapest was $380.. So bf asked me I went ebay wad's the cheapest price.. Well it's the same.. So bf said he'll go ebay help me bargain.. Wanted to have suki sushi for dinner but long Q.. Could not remember the way there so called fung for help but she give directions until so messy.. Hehe.. Thanks anyway.. Ended up eating at hawker which bf dislike.. Who cares.. I was angry with him for refusing to take pic with me.. Hehe.. It's just soo easy to get mad at him.. I dun understand why..

We took mrt to admiralty to walk home.. Went 7 eleven again to look for Magnum white.. It's been a month since I wanna try.. And there's this buy 1 get 1 free promotion until 31st march.. But I couldn't find white.. And YES!!!! I was soooo excited when I found white last night.. it was well hidden underneath other ice creams whereas others magnum could be seen.. I have real sharp eyes.. I saw a little off white color and decided to dig.. Yeah! Even the 7-eleven cashiers were surprised why I found white.. Haha.. So I excitedly told them it was hidden.. It isn't my first time going there to find.. They told me many people were asking why dun have and even she can't find for herself to try.. Haha..

Today: Went CCK to meet the guy from ebay to buy the hp @ $350.. Then went LOT ONE to shop.. Finally tried the McCafe mango smoothie.. it's not bad but $5.10 is a little pricey cos I can get better mange smoothie at far east..

Milk

2009-03-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

Slept at 3 plus last night.. Was chatting with ZW in msn.. while waiting for bf to go home.. But didn't manage to waqit for him cos sleepy.. The third bad thing is my hp spoil. faint. My bf n mum ask me y i use de hp all spoil.. Haiz.. It's nt my fault k!

Chun came over at 2 plus and went home at 8 plus.. Chit-chat, look at photos, played card games and PSP..

Met bf downstairs for around 50 min.. he lent me a nokia 8250 (My first hp in pri 5).. Haha.. His fucking bigger rank officer asked them go back camp tomorrow usual time.. Walau lo.. Stupid army.. One say rest day plus off day.. The other like that.. Haiz..

Was having diarrhea.. I think it's caused by the milk uncle's fren gave us which expire today..

Now can't sign in msn.. Dunno why.. sian diao..

Suay..

2009-03-25T20:03:00.003+08:00

Today went JB with mum n uncle for lunch then go Pelangi wash n blow hair.. And when the girl blow my hair.. OMG! an 'explosion' with fire spark at the socket.. Scare me sia! Reminds me of last last saturday when I was bathing.. My socket of radio and heater melted.. A very strong smell caused me to come out of the bathroom.. Bad things come in three right? Maybe a third would kill me.. Choy!

Bf reported to camp @ 9 plus in the morning.. And will only be back around 5am.. See?! Army simply sux right? But good thing is he will be free thurs n fri.. Yeah!

Yawn*

2009-03-25T01:03:00.003+08:00

Went causeway point with mu and ate mac using the vouchers bf gave mum..

Bought 2 bras.. My fav pink color and a black one (pierre cardin).. 2 for $28.. Basically I dun like my breasts for its size is small.. haha.. And hate it when bf says that.. I'm a B70.. if U happen to wanna buy bra for me.. triump is my fav brand.. Hehe.. I dun wear push-up.. Perhaps I should try..

I'm tired.. Waiting for bf to go home.. He reported to camp @ 7.30am.. And exercise should end @ 23:59.. But till nw he's still in camp.. So poor thing.. Army torture guys la.. No wonder some die from it.. Buay tahan.. Fuck. Ok.. So rough of me to use this word.. Before I'm with my bf.. I'm a NO VULGARITY person.. Now ah lian a little la.. hehe..

May happiness surrounds me each day..

2009-03-24T15:52:00.002+08:00

Monday: Met up with Zhu Yu and Ma Li Li at novena and took shuttle bus to KKH.. Collected my uniform and transcript..

Then headed to Outram park alone.. Fung and xl skipped half an hour of their boring orientation lecture to bring me to SNB to register.. Appreciated it.. Cos SGH is really big and unfamiliar to me.. And that place is ulu.. hard to find.. Seeing them in uniform makes me feel oh we're no longer students man!

After which, uncle and mum drove me to eat lunch and then home..

At night bf came over with my dinner.. Love him..

Today: planned to go JB but uncle OT so didn't go.. Just finished watching Marley and me online.. Cried as expected.. Rate it a 3 stars.. Bf having exercise at Safti camp.. Will be home around 11 pm ba.. Sianz.. Nothing to do now..

Countdown one week to my first day of work as SN in KKH..

2009-03-22T23:58:00.006+08:00

Bf slept over last night.. This evening went chinese garden with him walk walk then go causeway point.. I eat Tomyam U-mian never bring tissue so he went down to help me buy.. he's soo nice to me.. Loving him.. Our dates are always filled with laughter..

Sorry dear that I quarrelled with u over small things.. U know I angry must coax de ma.. Thanks for coaxing me.. Thanks for bearing with me.. Thanks for loving me.. (I know he doesn't read my blog)..

First time going out with a group of guys..

2009-03-21T22:48:00.010+08:00

Reach admiralty @12pm on time and waited for Jia Yuan till 12:26.. Board the train and headed towards Orchard.. Reached Lido around 1:07pm.. Late for the movie.. Me and JY sit in B row while David, Keng Guan, Gerald and Zhi Wei sat behind.. Wad an arrangement..

Coming soon is scary but storyline not that nice esp the ending.. It's definitely not as good as Shutter.. Rate it a 2.5 stars ba..

After the movie went to take bus to Paradise.. Eat mee goreng.. They said I eat only 20 cents share.. Lolz.. Last night's steamboat is too full la.. After which went to play pool.. Lost to KG by 2 balls lor.. Haha..

5 plus mrt-ed home with ZW n JY.. Then Bused-ed home with JY.. He alight first.. After which I went 630 buy dinner..

Go home bathe le.. Bf came over..

Friday is over..

2009-03-21T00:51:00.003+08:00

Online whole day.. Finally broke bf record in quickfire pool @ miniclip.com. Went Bugis with bf at 5 plus.. He treat me to Tian Tian huo guo (everyday steamboat).. Both of us think it's not worth the $32.60.. haha.. Not that much choices.. And no fruits..

Forgiven..

2009-03-20T00:15:00.002+08:00

Bf meet me downstairs at 9 plus and came up awhile.. Met for an hour only.. Sianz.. he's tired..

Well I cried just now over tyhe phone with him.. He neglected my feelings.. I need more attention from him.. care and concern.. More love and misses.. perhaps he doesn't understand.. Not that he dun love me.. I know he does.. But perhaps sometimes I just need more.. feel empty sometimes.. Read someone's blog and feel that the guy and her is more suitable actually.. This makes me afraid.. Will my bf meet someone more suitable for him at SIM? It's not that I'm inferior.. Just that sometimes some people are just not meant to be..

Anyway kinda forgiven aunt le.. i'm not someone angry for long..

P.S.: My final GPA is 3.1 only.. Yup I'm disappointed but even more disappointed when my bf keep saying he's disappointed.. I know he isn't impress.. But wad can I do? I'm not as good as he thinks.. I'm just a girl.. Dun flatter me by saying i have brains I have looks I'm beautiful inside out when u dun mean it.. Bcos it hurts more when u lie than when u criticises..

Back from KL

2009-03-19T15:10:00.005+08:00

Monday: Set off from house at 9:30.. Meet aunt at 10.. Went city Square awhile then went Larkin terminal board the bus at 1pm..

First quarrel started between mum and aunt over aunt accusation of mum oweing her money but we have not reach destination so haven pay her cab fare..

Reach KL at 6 plus.. It was raining.. slight flood.. Looked for hotel.. ended up in Replica Inn Chinatown.. RM 128 per night.. Stayed in room 405.. Not a nice hotel.. Old old de.. And no housekeeping makes us angry.. So changed to room 305 the 2nd night.. Stupid right? They said need to request de.. And the toilet flush is spoilt.. The bulb also spoilt so I called them and they came up to change the bulb.. Rather unpleasant stay there..

Went Petaling street for dinner.. Eat chicken rice recommended by aunt.. Not that nice..

Met up with cousin who lives in KL.. Aunt spent her time having tea with her daughter.. And gave her son-in-law RM100 for petrol.. She's always giving her children money.. They always lend money from her too.. All 3 children.. Haiz.. She never remembers how she beg grandma for money to see doctor when she's poor.. Where are her children when she needs them? Dun understand her..

Shop there till around 11.. Bought singlets and wallet for uncle.. As for me, bought 2 pair of shorts.. Mum bought facial masks..

Went back hotel starting my horror.. haha.. Aunt n mum took turn snoring making me unable to sleep the whole night.. Such a torture.. And I'm having flu.. Perhaps cos of the air-con.. Aunt keep asking me to apply ointment.. Which I refused..

Tuesday: Woke up at 8 plus.. Went to have dim sum for breakfast.. Not nice.. Then went KLCC, Times Square etc.. Bought hairbands.. Shop around till 5 plus went back to KLCC and went up Patronas Twin tower 41st storey bridge after a 3-D introductiory film.. Nice view..

Angry over taxi fare cos aunt scolded me for asking the price.. When I ask the price it's cheaper u know! Stupid her.

My mum got a free make-up @ times square.. It's not nice la.. Green eyeshadow.. And aunt keep saying my mum is fat etc.. Can't stand her criticism.. Furious. Anyway bought makeup remover sheets for mum @ RM12.90..

At night went Petaling street again.. Eat Fried hor fun etc for dinner.. Mum bought a bag @ RM50.. Go there u must really bargain.. Cos they will say it costs RM 100 plus..

Went back hotel sleep.. another night keep woken up by aunt's snoring.. haiz..

Wednesday: Woke up at 8 plus.. Went for breakfast at 9 plus.. Eat porridge.. quite ok..

Then went Puduraya bus terminal.. aunt bought tickets @ RM 40 each.. When we came it's only RM 16 lor..

Super angry that we ended up in Tuas checkpioint then went golden mile.. Took bus 100 from opp and then MRT from Kallang back to woodlands and took 962 home.. Walau.. My bag is super heavy lor.. Fuck lor.. Stand all the way.. And of cos aunt buay paiseh got seat la.. Old ma.. But poor me n mum stood for an hour..Board the bus at 12pm and reach home at 8 plus.. Can u believe that?!

And at wdl mrt aunt said why i wear sleeveless later complain flu again.. It was warm lor.. Even more angry with her.. Her tone.. Haiz.. Hate her lor..

These past 3 days.. Really suffered.. She's full of negative comments.. She's super losoh and naggy repeating things ovr and over and everything must listen to her.. Act like expert but always lead the wrong way and doubt me when I lead the way back to hotel.. Can't stand her!! Everywhere she go she will talk to strangers and tell them I'm going to be missy at kkh etc.. Crazy lor.. And she can't bear to come back to s'pore even though she say not nice to shop.. Dunno why.. When mum bathing.. She asked me is it me or mum who wanna go home.. Is it cos mum no money and stingy so dun wanna stay longer.. So I told her both of us dun wanna stay a day longer.. Cos I did not sleep well with their snoring and we've shopped almost all there is.. Very bored le.. I was exasperated yet still need to respect cannot show my anger.. Haiz..

So in conclusion, I didn't enjoy this trip.. And I'll dun wish to be her niece.. My mum also suffered under her for years.. From young she dotes on her children but not my mum.. Ask mum do housework etc.. Super calculative when it comes to mum.. Mum's brother dotes on mum she super jealous.. last time grandma buy things for brother she flare up.. OMG.. I dunno why mum has such a sister.. And my brother sympathises on aunt for having unfilial children.. He even bought her watch and hat on mother's day.. Faint.. I never complain to bro abt her la.. perhaps I should make him understand that she's stupid is her problem.. She loves her children so much so that even if they scold her.. even if her son dun work and steal her money she also continue to dote on them that's her problem already..

Anyway last night bf came over with my dinner.. So sweet of him.. But he's tired cos preparing for exercise next week.. Haiz.. Can tell that he never miss me as much as I miss him.. Sianz..

Chatted with Dav last night.. Complaint to him.. Yup Thanks for listening.. Since bf unwilling to hear my complaints.. Dun blame bf too.. Cos he's tired.. Slightly disappointed though..

Today: Woke up at around 2pm.. Missing bf now..

Will be missing him..

2009-03-15T21:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went Woodlands point play pool with bf.. 1 hour $7.20.. Played 3 rounds won only the last round..

Then meet chun, kat, joey, ya wen @ CWP Iciban for dinner.. Followed by chit-chat session @ Mos burger.. Loves them.. Never-ending Laughter..

Then went home meet bf.. He slept over..

Today went dentist.. Bf pei me.. Then we join mum n uncle for breakfast.. Then went home sleep.. Play psp whole afternoon and went dinner with mum n uncle.. Just met up with bf downstairs..

Tomorrow going KL with mum and aunt.. Will be back either wed or thurs ba..

I'm a simple girl..

2009-03-14T00:53:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 9 plus and pei bf to NUH for his Med appt.. Then went SIM open house with him so that he can show them his original cert.. Then went Suntec for IT fair.. And went sunplaza buy dinner and bus-ed home.. At night watch tv.. A day pei-ing him.. Cos I love him..

A day out..

2009-03-13T01:20:00.002+08:00

Today went bowling @ Orchid country club with Fung n Xueling.. Then went Northpoint jalan jalan n timezone to play basketball etc..

At night meet bf go IMM to collect my contact lens and have BK for dinner.. He saw his friend and this time he didn't run away but talk to him with me by his side.. Perhaps I no longer need to be hidden.. Maybe he's willing to give me my status.. No matter wad.. I love him..

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

We come to love not by finding a perfect person,but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Just read Norin's blog.. And my feeling is haiz.. Relationship can be so brittle.. Why did he fell for someone like that suddenly and decided to get married and have baby with her? It's just so scary that someone could change suddenly.. Hope Norin will pick herself up.. Learn from her mistake and live on well.. I know deep down she's still hurt.. Nobody actually recover 100%.. There's a scar that will never ever disappear.. Just have to learn to live with it.. Same goes with wanling.. They deserve better.. Jiayou everyone..

Love is like heaven, but it can hurt like hell.

Love is like a war...easy to start....hard to end...impossible to forget..

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it's what you are expected to give -- which is everything.

Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within.

Love makes life so confusing, but without love would you really want to live?

I hate love for what it does to me when it ends, but I love the way I feel once I'm in it.

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry?

Games..

2009-03-12T02:35:00.002+08:00

Tues: Bf came over with my dinner as usual.. Slept at 3 plus cos wanna finish the HK drama..

Wed: Play games the whole day.. He broke my record in pool so I tried hard.. But can't break his record YET..

He's been missed..

2009-03-10T03:06:00.003+08:00

Met up with bf for a few minutes downstairs to pass him something only..

Miss him the whole night..

Was reading newspaper and magazine.. And I like the channel U 10pm show..

Just watched Bedtime story.. Rate it a 2.5 stars.. Also watch batman begins halfway..

Going to sleep now.. Yawn*

P.S: Uncle got me a new mattress..

Lack of guy friends.. haha..

2009-03-09T14:49:00.003+08:00

Chatted with David over the phone for alomost 2 hours last night.. It's been like 2 years plus since I last met him.. Haha.. And that's the only time I met up with him.. Lolz..

Throughout my years of education I never contact dun mention going out with guys.. Except group outing.. Haha.. Perhaps cos they think I'm just so far away from them.. In upper sec I dun even play with guys anymore.. Perhaps cos my class always lack of guys.. Pri n sec is like that.. Poly even worse..

So the only guy friends I have are those I knew online and from work I guess.. And I never go out with them anymore.. Is it cos I'm attached? Or cos I dun want to?

I once said that the best way to prevent unfaithful is to stay away from it..

And this leads to my bf weird behaviour.. When he's in poly he goes out with his poly friends.. when he works in zoo or lemongrass, he goes out with his colleagues.. But when he graduate and quits, he'll no longer go out with them despite their invitations.. I really cannot understand.. Bcos I'm just so different.. I love going out with friends.. I organise gatherings.. Why is he so sociable when he's in it but once he's out he's totally indifferent?

Though I dun understand my bf.. So many differences.. So weird.. But I love him anyway..

I've learnt to accept.. I'm still trying my best in my relationship.. Sometimes I feel so xin fu.. Sometimes I feel so stupid to be with this guy who is so hard to understand.. So hard to reach for..

And to kat.. Thanks for hating him when he hurt me.. Thanks for saying he's handsome as long as he loves me.. I know he loves me now.. Much more compared to when we stead the first year.. But well he's still him.. I dun cry over trying hard to accept him le.. I know I can always go out there and find someone much better but no one is perfect.. So I'll still stick to my choice..

Love is about imperfections.. Trying to change him is like turning him to myself.. Which means I only love myself not him..

Dating is always fun..

2009-03-08T23:03:00.005+08:00

Went IMM today with bf!! Hehe.. Treat him to Fish & Co.. Spent around $34..

He left my Giant plastic bag containing Ferrero Rocher, Hello Panda and 4 rechargeable batteries at the seat.. Almost half an hour then I asked him where are my things.. So we went back to take.. Lolz.. I laughed at him the whole day cos the waitress asked wad plastic bag and his answer is NORMAL plastic bag.. haha.. So I told her a Giant plastic bag.. Hehe.. My bf is soo cute la.. Endless laughter with him..

And when I came back.. It's such a coincidence lor.. My mum bought 2 batteries to replace the lost ones!!

Anyway bought 1 yr supply of acuvue clear instead of Freshkon which I wanna try cos my $40 voucher expires end of this month and can only buy clear disposable lens..

Love is great..

2009-03-08T14:28:00.002+08:00

Thursday: He came over at night to pei me..

Friday: Went Sheng Siong with family then went orchard to meet bf walk walk and watched Watchmen.. rate it a 2.5 stars ba.. M18 for sexual and violence.. Quite boring at first.. Too draggy..

Saturday: Went to Iri's N Jeff's Chalet as they ROM on 6th March.. Happy for them.. And thanks Er Kee for helping me fix the problem of the PSP being lag..

Bf wait for me @ 962 bus stop as I told him I'll take bus 168 but ended up taking 969 as I can't find the bus stop for 168 @ Tampines.. I alighted at Admiralty and walked home.. So I call him when I reach home.. He came up and we watched Meet Dave.. I'll rate it a 3.5 stars.. It's really funny!! He slept over.. Loves..

Anyway I was really lost when I'm alone at an unfamiliar place searching for the main road bus stop of 168.. My hp battery was flat.. Haiz.. I guess even though I'm turing 20.. I'm still not independent.. I hate being alone.. Is it bcos of my childhood? I realised the importance of HP!

Waiting for my boy..

2009-03-05T18:59:00.002+08:00

Went JB with family again for makan and jalan jalan..

Now waiting for bf to come and pei me..

Step up

2009-03-05T01:22:00.002+08:00

Just watched Step up in tudou.. Rate it a 3 stars..

Missing him lots..

Gonna go to bed now..

Happy 2 years 11 months anniversary..

2009-03-02T16:30:00.004+08:00

Quarrelled with bf over a stupid lie he made long long time ago.. One that bothered me for soo long.. Haiz.. Can't stand being with a liar.. He's a weirdo.. Yet I love him.. So I must be weird too..

Today: went ICA with him for passport extension, Oath taking.. He sent his application to SIM for RMIT business accounting.. Oh I'm working soon and he's going to go back to student life.. He listened to me and chose part time so that he can work..

I'm afraid our relationship will be affected by our busy different lives.. But still I wanna believe our love is strong.. Girls pls stay away from my bf.. He's MINE! Not that he's that great that many girls wanna snatch.. Hehe.. But Some girls just love to snatch people's bf ma.. Lolz.. And my bf is attractive in his own way..

Test date is on 17th April..

2009-03-02T16:30:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went Lot 1 with bf from 3 plus to 6 plus.. Then went home watch HK drama till around 1am..

Today went driving - Compulsory Auto lesson.. Generally driving well.. But still not good in lane changing.. Feel that I like manual more than auto.. Haha.. Is it cos I'm used to the clutch and gear changing already?

Anyway just booked several revision lessons and driving test on 17th April 1pm.. Wish me luck!

Empty..

2009-03-01T13:33:00.002+08:00

Watched Bangkok dangerous last night with bf till 2 plus.. Rate it a 3 stars..

Still unhappy that the 3 of them got to go back ward 56 but not me.. Haiz.. Suay or wad?

Alone at home now.. Just eat honey star and milo for breakfast cum lunch.. Feeling moody..

1 month of holi left only..

2009-02-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

Thursday: Went Yishun then bugis with bf..

Friday: He came over at night and we watched the curious case of Benjamin Button.. I keep fast forward cos too slow a movie.. rate it a 2.0 stars.

Today: Went causeway point with mum then meet bro n his gf at AMK shop and eat.. Just put mask for bf.. Now waiting..

P.S: Got a sms from sister Janet today.. I'm posted to Children's Emergency.. My 2nd choice.. I always thought I'll get my 1st choice ward 56 (PRCP paeds medical ward).. I can't hide my disappointment.. Really hope it'll be good for me.. Haiz..

Here I blog again..

2009-02-25T20:43:00.002+08:00

Saturday slept with bf again.. Watched jia you xi shi dvd.. Rate it 2.5 stars ba.. hehe..

Sunday went malaysia whole day shop plus makan with uncle n mum..

Monday.. driving lesson with that super naggy instructor.. Then meet bf @ Plaza singapura shop around.. Watched he's just not that into you.. Bf dun like it and wanna fall asleep le.. For me I'll rate it 3 stars cos it's funny..

Tuesday.. driving lesson with the bike instrcuctor.. Not bad.. Bf came over with my dinner.. Love him..

Today.. driving with a chinese-speaking instructor.. Not bad.. Bf never come over.. rainy day is a good excuse for him.. Missing him..

P.S: Lost 2 rechargeable battery of camera since friday.. Sad la.. Must waste money buy batteries..

Gathering @ clarke quay..

2009-02-21T15:32:00.008+08:00

Friday: watched HK drama.. Meet Fung @ AMK @ 5 plus.. Waited for late queen for ard 15 mins.. Then went Central.. Called May and Celest then found out that they'll be late.. Haiz.. Bad la they 2.. Want Fung to be early also no need trick me along de ma.. Lolz..

Went Manhattan's Fish market to eat @ $98..

Then went walk walk and boating.. Cos of May it's free.. Usual price is $13 each for 30 mins..

After which walk walk again and went Starbucks chit chat..

Reach home around 12.20am..

Today: Woke up late.. Eat and do face mask, then online.. Boring saturday.. Bf dun wanna go out.. Super sian.. He's a pig who likes to sleep. Haha.. But think will meet him tonight cos yesterday never meet..

Missing him..

2009-02-19T18:28:00.002+08:00

Yesterday: Went driving.. Then meet mum at YCK station go Junction 8.. Shop around and went facial appointment @ Jean Yip for $19.26 cos I got a voucher from dec late night shopping for spending more than $30.. Bought 2 face masks @ $1.95 each from Watson's and a pierre cardin bra for $10.. Also bought bio-essence deep nourishing toner @$11.35 from Fairprice then saw it was selling at $11 @ watson's.. Lucky only 35 cents loss.. haha..

Anyway I not using Garnier le.. Changed to Nivea Aqua sensation day cream and bio-essence tanaka white series.. And I declare Garnier eye roll-on doesn't work! Wasted my $19.90.

Anyway eat yoshinoya with mum for tea break and the auntie there is super blur and not friendly.. Next I went to pasar malam @ Admiralty to buy dinner and bought a shorts for sleeping.. Didn't meet bf cos he dun wanna meet.. However, saw his dad again downstairs.. So my mum went to play with bf's nephew.. Haiz.. W/o his dad knowing who are we.. Sad right.

Today went driving again.. Hope to see bf tonight.. Next wk mon to thurs will be review plus practice le.. Think thurs can book the test le..

Intensive driving

2009-02-17T18:17:00.003+08:00

Sunday at night watched Underdog dvd.. Quite funny movie.. Rate it 3.5 stars ba.. Didn't meet bf but talked to him till 12 MN..

Monday woken up by bf cos he wanna take MC.. So I accompanied him to Woodlands Polyclinic.. Waited from 9.23am till 11.35am.. Haiz.. So I went straight to my drving lesson.. It was a new instructor (teach bike de).. He's quite nice.. Practised U-turn and learnt narrow courses as well as emrgency brake.. Went home finished wathcing another HK drama.. Bf came with my dinner..

Today: Went driving again.. Reviewed lessons 14 to 24.. Learnt vertical driving.. A new instructor again.. Haiz.. Not that good.. Only point out mistakes de.. The first one who never ask me anything about myself.. I seriously prefer instructors who will chat with me.. Though everytime they will ask about nursing.. Haha..

First time celebrate valentine on the actual day..

2009-02-15T18:17:00.002+08:00

Froday: Had driving lesson with the instructor who never fails to doze off.. But he said my driving quite good.. Then meet bf at Jurong point.. But finally went to Causeway point to buy the gifts.. Bought a Braun Buffel wallet for him for $107.10 and he bought me a necklace at SK jewellery for $269..

Saturday: Went to cousin house.. 4 plus bf came my house and we went vivocity for dinner at Han's (Harbourfront centre) and then watched Slumdog millionaire.. The movuie very indian.. Quite meaningful but not touching nor really funny.. So I'll rate it a 3 stars..

Today: Went dentist with bf in the morning.. Dentist said it's 75% done.. Some people may even take out the braces at this stage if they're pleased.. And next month he will cut straight a little of my front teeth to close the interdental small triangular gap.. And asked me to decide if I like my teeth to be algned like now or push up the 2 incisors which were hidden behind upwards a little to align the gum instead.. A very hard decision to make cos different kinda beauty..

Anyway now I'm alone at home cos uncle and mum went malaysia when I taking my afternoon nap.. And bf went Sakura for dinner with family.. Sianz.. Most probably will cook maggi mee..

Went 5 places

2009-02-12T23:38:00.002+08:00

Woke up at almost 8am with bf..

Went KKH for chickenpox vaccination.. Pain..

Then go SP eat lunch..

And go NUH for bf medical appointment..

Then go medical centre at tanjong pagar for my medical checkup (employment) - urine test, blood test (HIV) and chest x-ray.. Super sian diao by their attitude.. Register @13.05.. Ended @ 15.10..

Then go bugis and Junction 8 shop shop..

Tomorrow going driving then meet bf go Jurong point to buy valentine's gift..

Anyway yesterday went singtel change the SIM card and it works! Regret not changing it earlier (Aug 2007).. Stupid problem I drag so long until always quarrel with bf.. oh.. Sorry dear.. (Though I know he never read my blog).. Yesterday the singtel guy look at me and ask me 1989 got 18 years old meh? LOLZ!! His maths fail or I look so young?

Oh and my bf always say got girls look at me with those atonished look.. Oh darling.. Guys look at me.. U also got comment.. And I also find it strange why girls look at me k.. Dun tell me they all les hor.. Perhaps they like my sytle ma.. So look at me lor.. Can't me I so gorgeous right?! Haiz.. My bf today say my leg got scars from mosquito bite not nice le.. I very sad.. Wad can I do?

Driving was fun..

2009-02-11T23:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday watched HK drama and went out with bf to Raffles city SC and Funan Digital mall..

Today finished the HK drama! And went for driving after almost 3 months of break.. Haha.. Bf pei me go.. So after which uncle and mum drove us to Causeway point..

Just read Xueling blog.. 2 pics grabbed:

Just read Celest blog.. And I must say I'm in the same plight as her.. OMG!

My Sony ericsson W850i is dead officially.. Blank screen all the way..

And 6111 which Nokia compensate me is even worse.. Can't even on nor charge..

So I'm currently borrowing mum's sumsung (which I bought for her almost 2 yrs ago)..

I'm aiming to recontract in may 09 and I want Sony ericsson W595 (pink).. I was actually aiming for LG ice cream pink.. But changed my mind..

But 3 months!! OMG how do I live w/o u (beloved hp)..

And seriously can't bear to lose all the messages by my darling.. Haiz.. NO choice!

My dear is now in living rom watching tv.. He'll be sleeping with me and tomorrow we're going KKH for chickenpox vaccination, collection of uniform, his medical appointment in NUH and my medical checkup for employment..

Fufilling CNY!

2009-02-09T23:24:00.014+08:00

Yesterday was a big reunion at my house with uncle's and my relatives.. Got fish, prawn, watercress soup, curry chicken etc.. 'Lau' yushwng twice!

Evening meet up with my dear, went to West mall.. At night quarrelled so he never call me before he sleep.. haiz.. Quarrelled over my handphone always no reception.. problem existed since I used singtel.. But I never go and fix it.. Yes it's my fault but ask him pei me go fix it he dun want.. And he off his hp so as to make me feel how he felt.. Damn stupid..

Anyway today meet bf a while at admiralty.. Hug hug lor.. Cos we missed each other after the quarrel.. Lolz.. Then I went to meet Xueling with her sis and Lee fung go Cineleisure K box! But forgot to bring camera.. Took a few pics using Xueli hp though.. Waiting for them to send me.. After which go home sleep.. Bf still in camp.. Sian!!

Photos Joey sent me:

Had fun with friends..

2009-02-08T01:23:00.009+08:00

Thurs: Watch HK drama whole day..

Fri: Watch HK drama.. Went to cut fringe.. Watched eagle eye dvd.. Spent the night with bf..

Sat: Went Mei Xing house play mahjong.. Won $2.20.. Went Her sister birthday chalet.. Played bowling.. rank no. 2 amongst friends.. Played blackjack.. Won $3.60..

Happy 2 years 10 months anniversary..

2009-02-04T17:52:00.003+08:00

Monday: Slack at home all day long and watched HK drama.. Meet bf at nite downstairs chit chat..

Tuesday: Went to see doctor for my URTI which lasted quite some time.. Sore throat started after reunion dinner.. Then went Orchard with bf.. Bought a pair of boxers for him.. Anyway we went to POSBank @ takashimaya to change my atm card to GO card cos it's peeling off le.. And we were served by his poly classmate cum my sec sch senior in my CCA.. This time round he didn't run away or anything.. I'm glad.. Perhaps he has finally changed..

Today: Went JB with mum and uncle.. Thought he'll come back early but oh no.. He's coming back only at 8 plus cos he's in another camp preparing for an exercise.. Haiz..

Happy 'ren' day!

2009-02-01T23:25:00.006+08:00

Went to River ang pao today with mum and uncle.. And lau pa sat for dinner.. Didn't get to meet my dear cos he's busy doing thing for his brother..

I hereby declare that my relationship is going very well since dunno when.. We are still deeply in love.. I have no reason to break up with him and I hope 3 or 4 years down the road I'll become his wife! Lolz.. Wo shi xin fu de.. Thanks!

Another outing with my 2 loves..

2009-02-01T02:06:00.015+08:00

2 months holiday finally starts..

2009-01-31T14:19:00.003+08:00

Won around $16 in gambling at cousin's house on 27th Jan..

28th and 29th just do junior.. Bought cake for the ward..

Met bf on 29th night for half an hour when he came back from Genting.. His only phone call on 28th nite made my tears welled up..

Yesterday went back school for some stupid briefing.. Forgot to bring camera.. But good thing is Can see my poly frenz! To update photos when my friends send me..

After which met bf at bishan and watched Love matters (xin fu wan shui).. I'll rate it 3 stars.. Quite funny but lack a sense of touching kinda feeling which is expected in Jack Neo's film..

Slept and woke up with bf.. Later going Sentosa with bf and mum! Love them lots..

Happy NIU year!

2009-01-27T02:26:00.008+08:00

From wed to sat just normal lor.. having attachment.. My result for PRCP is 65 marks.. Haiz.. Aimed for 70 lor.. But... Anyway preceptor from china are not lenient in giving marks ba.. Cos when they PRCP they only hope for a pass.. And sister keep saying I'm quiet.. Sian diao lor..

Anyway went chinatown with bf on fri after work..

Sunday which is eve of CNY I'm day off as requested.. Went Jurong point with bf to buy his cny shirt and we bought bird nest for my mum..

At night went Uncle's sister house eat.. So busy entertaining her 3 grandchildren! Lost less than a dollar in mahjong..

After countdown, went chinatown walk walk.. Reach home at 3am..

1st day of chinese new year! As usual, my cousin and family came over for steamboat then we played card games (Gambling).. Won $3.50..

Evening went to father's place for dinner cum gambling again.. Won 80 cents only.. Reach home @ 11 plus and my 4th uncle whom I haven't seen for a few years came over.. So I bathed at almost 1am..

2nd day of CNY I'll be going to cousin's place for more makan and gambling.. maybe at nite will go jalan jalan ba..

Haiz.. Missing my bf who is going to genting later at 5am and come back only on thursday..

Wednesday and thursday shall be my last 2 days of PRCP!! Shall commence work on 30th March..

A simple day..

2009-01-20T00:37:00.012+08:00

Woke up early to go bank with mum.. Then eat and shop at Causeway point..

Meet up with bf at the playground from 9.30 to 10.50pm.. Been such a long long time since we sat at our old place.. It feels really good to hug him at the place where we always hug last time.. Loving him lots.. Tomorrow, wed and thurs afternoon shift so probably won't be meeting him.. OH DEAR! I'll surely miss him lots..

These few days..

2009-01-18T23:19:00.003+08:00

These few days of attachment mainly do junior.. Bathe and feed babies, take parameters etc etc..
Yesterday morning shift so meet with bf go orchard jalan jalan..

Today went Compass point with mum and uncle.. Then went causeway point..

Evening meet bf go Chong Pang walk walk..

Done with 2nd round of nights..

2009-01-13T15:18:00.005+08:00

Sunday: Bf pei me go admiralty take passport size photo and eat KFC..

After that is night shift as in charge cum junior for 6 patients.. Did admission, hypocount, feed infant etc..

Monday: night shift as junior for 6 patients (I helped write report for preceptor but wanna go home early so never pass report).. Did admission again and hypocount, feed baby again.. Did NPA, assist in setting plug and taking blood and urine culture etc..

Today is sleeping day.. Slept for almost 5 hours le.. Now nothing to do.. Just waiting for bf to come back so that I can indulge in his hugs.. Hehe..

A little lazy to blog le..

2009-01-11T12:29:00.004+08:00

Wed and Thurs: Morning shift.. Bathed infant and helped with bowel washout for him.. Took cases but too busy doing junior so only pass report for one case.. Did NPA.. Assisted in plug setting.. The usual things..

Friday: Off day! Went Malaysia to perm hair and shop shop with mum.. Spent RM198 on my hair and bought a new mascara - UNSTOPPABLE CURLY EXTENSION.. This means i gotta finish my UNSTOPPABLE SHINY BLACK by CNY..

At night bf came over to watch Shrek the third DVD with me and slept over.. Quite funny show..

Saturday: Off day again.. Went bugis to complete my CNY new clothes shopping with mum.. Meet up with brother and his gf at chinatown jalan jalan and makan..

Mum bought Sumsung S760 7.2 megapixel camera (pink) with 2 gigabyte memory card for $150..

Today: On night shift.. Later going to take passport size pic and transfer the $550 which I borrowed from mum to bf so that i can use his card to book driving lessons online.. Can U believe I didn't drive since NOV? Lolz.. No choice la.. No fixed off day and no money.. Now I'm so poor that I owed mummy in total $1000.. Haiz..

Finally..

2009-01-07T21:45:00.003+08:00

2 days of PM shift and a day of AM shift doing junior..

Yesterday NOKIA finally called to ask us to collect the brand-new 6111.. Lame right? A 2005 model.. Repaired in 2007 and collected in 2009..

Today angry with the mother whose daughter admitted again.. The no house no money de.. Maybe she got Bipolar.. Keep saying that student ah........ Then dun wanna talk to me.. Then after that came and apologise to me say she got chest pain just now.. Crazy woman la.. Every one of us buay tahan her..

2 days nv meet bf.. Today meet him again..

Tomorrow morning shift! To update again soon...

Sunday off day..

2009-01-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

Went to Sembawang shopping centre and Novena with bf.. Nothing much to update.. Just shop around..

Tomorrow on PM shift.. Just hope that PRCP will be over soon..

Photos to share..

2009-01-04T12:37:00.014+08:00

Happy new year '09!

2009-01-01T23:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday work PM shift.. Bf pei me take 962 then 960 with me.. I'm the only student.. Took one cubicle as in-charge but only 3 patients la..

Anyway countdown with mum and bf watching tv.. Then watched I-robot dvd with bf till around 4am..

Today had fun BBQ with friends.. 9 yrs, 8 yrs or 7 yrs of friendship and counting on!!

To update photos soon!!

Finally went to see doctor..

2008-12-30T00:31:00.004+08:00

Woken up by bf @ 9am today.. It's my off day.. He pei me go Woodlands Polyclinic see Dr. for my around 10 days URTI.. My weight decrease again.. 41.5kg.. Wait n wait.. Left there 1 plus.. Haiz.. had a quarrel with bf.. Will not elaborate on it..

After that went Orchard.. Bought a top for $32.90 for CNY.. Watched Australia.. Cried twice.. Rate it 3 stars ba..

Went chinatown after that for dinner.. Lighting okok only..

Well a short post cos gonna go sleep le.. Tomorrow on afternoon shift..

To update next year ba.. Haha..

Happy 999 days anniversary..

2008-12-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

Today PM shift.. Junior with another PCA.. Did 2 admissions.. Feed baby, set up phottherapy, do CLC, parameters etc.. One thing good about afternoon shift is that it's relax and less busy.. But very sian to go home late.. However sunday got uncle drive me home very good.. Bf no car to drive le.. Cos brother sold that extra car away le..

Bf keep cmplaining he on leave but I work everyday.. Haha.. So poor thing of him to stay at home bored.. Love him as always.. Missing my friends too.. BBQ was confirmed on 1st Jan.. Looking forward to it!

Completed singapore shopping with him..

2008-12-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

Went East point with him today! First time going there.. Nothing much to shop really.. david saw me there and called me.. But he never greet me cos he's in a rush..

In case U dunno him.. It was through a guy called Jia Yuan who lives in woodlands.. He got my email through wholivesnearyou.com and accidentally paste it in their msn conference so Dav and edmund added me.. And Dav called me thinking it was Jia Yuan playing tricks with them.. Talked with them over the phone for some time and finally met up with them a yr plus ago and watched just follow law.. After that also met up with Jia Yuan twice for supper.. And chatted with their frens like Keng Guan, Zhi Qiang and Frost on msn..

Anyway headed to orchard with bf.. All day long we've been going to Cds shop and shops that sell LCD tv etc.. Like Best denki.. Super sian le.. bf loves going these places.. Haiz.. No choice but to pei him lor.. But anwyay he bought a shirt for me.. Hehe.. Dunno y recently I like to wear clothes with sleeves le..

Anyway today i would like to mention an incident I dunno how to solve.. And I must say this.. I HATE NOKIA! in dec 2005 I bought my 6111.. The first hp I pay for myself.. In July 2007 I gave that hp to uncle cos I bought my sony ericsson.. The battery always run flat easily so uncle bought an original battery from admiralty Singtel.. In dec 2007 The battery melt!! Lucky nobody was hurt.. The cover also melted lor.. So it was sent for repair at Causeway point.. 1 year already!! And everytime we go there to collect the hp we were so unhappy! They said they can't find the hp and can't find their copy of the receipt!! Once and again they said will compensate us with a new 6111 sent to our house but NEVER!! Mum called the newspaper Sin Ming Ri Bao, they said wanna interview us but too troublesome so we never agreed.. Go CASE will cost money.. And we never go back to NOKIA regarding this since September bcos we went like 8 times already.. Flare up le.. They can't even give me back my hp.. WTF!! This kinda service from such a big company is simply shocking! They should really reflect or they'll soon go bust..

A christmas filled with peace joy n love..

2008-12-27T12:53:00.012+08:00

Went Bugis, Central and Liang court with bf on x'mas.. I simply love dating with him cos he always brings me laughter..

Yesterday was on morning shift as in-charge junior alone of 2 cubicles.. Was busy but still can cope until i've to assist in blood taking twice and plug setting once and then came 2 admissions.. So busy that I didn't go for break.. So I went home early by 15 min lor..

Slept with bf again last night.. He gave me a small winnie the pooh which I said was cute on his birthday.. Oh so sweet of him to remember..

Hehe.. later going out with him again.. Loves it..

Done with evolving GE but down with URTI..

2008-12-24T16:10:00.008+08:00

Monday: Work morning shift.. Took 4 cases.. Preceptor gave mid-posting feedback le..

'Ming Li is a hadrworking girl, she is keen to learn and has met most of her objectoves in the past 6 weeks. She communicates well with staff and patients.'

Verbally she said I'm very good.. Haha..

At night meet bf to watch little nonya together..

Tuesday: Work morning shift as junior.. Inserted OGT etc.. After work went Padma house change clothes then she drove us go to the chalet.. Lotsa food.. And Drs are surprised to see us in shorts.. Haha.. So different from the student nurses they see..

However, flu got worse and secretions turned greenish..

Today woke up feeling so unwell.. Quarrel with bf as he never care for me.. Last nite only threw LEMSIP down from 8th storey for me instead of coming down to meet me.. But now okay with him le.. Still feeling sick.. Right eye still swollen.. Had a piece of log cake and now eating breakfast.. Spent the afternoon reading 2 issues of U magazine.. Not meeting celest and fung to celebrate xueling birthday le.. Cos really dun feel well..

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Specially to Xueling! May all your wishes come true!!

Hasn't been feeling well..

2008-12-22T19:33:00.019+08:00

Since thursday evening I've nausea each time I eat.. Diarrhea twice since then.. Bloated tummy though I eat much lesser than usual..

Friday: Afternoon shift.. In charge of a cubicle as Junior.. Feed infant, NGT etc.. At night bf came over to sleep.. So I'm the first to wish him Happy birthday..

Saturday: Went Pulau Ubin with bf to celebrate his birthday.. First time going there.. Cycle until so tired.. Nothing much to see.. Evening went Junction 8 midnight shopping.. Watched YES man.. I'll rate it a 3.5 stars.. Very funny show..

Sunday: Work afternoon shift.. Took 3 cases..

Today: Morning shift.. Took 4 cases.. bathed children, get ulcer swab, throat swab, nasopharyngeal swab, urine FEME, served medications etc.. Go break for only 50 min and go home late for 53 min.. Missed 962 n 912 @ wdls interchange then took 912 halfway raining call mum but reach bus stop no rain.. Like an idiot as uncle drove me home for that short distance..

Now waiting for bf to come with my dinner since yesterday never got to see him.. He's on leave till 6th Jan..

Yet another day w/o him..

2008-12-18T23:06:00.005+08:00

Woke up at around 9.. Meet up with Mei Xing at 912 bus stop at 11..

Then mum called and told me I forgot my wallet.. So we headed back to my house then walk to Admiralty take MRT to Orchard..

Went Ngee Ann City basement for fish n chips ($9.90).. Quiet nice..

And bought birthday card ($5.10) for bf..

Bought Giordano Bermuda ($29.70 after lunch hour special 40%) for bf as x'mas gift..

Went Isetan wisma & scotts, Tangs, Paragon.. but can't find $15 bedsheet needed for gift exchange on 23rd x'mas chalet by ward 56.. We wrote wad we want on paper and then pick each other's paper.. I picked s SEN who wanted a queen size bed sheet..

Anyway we went to causeway point Metro then finally bought one for $20 from Aussino half price sale..

However my mum asked me to give her that cos too ex.. And she'll help me get the single one for $15.. Lolz.. I think I'll claim the $20 from bf as x'mas gift from him to mum..

Today never meet bf cos he went to visit his sis who has just given birth to a girl at 1pm today at Mount Alvernia Hospital..

Spent the night wrapping present, writing card and doing a silly thing for bf..

These 3 days..

2008-12-17T18:41:00.002+08:00

Mon did not take case..

Yesterday took 1 case..

Today took 2 cases..

Bathed infant and children..

Assisted in Bone marrow aspiration..

Faxed for appointment and discharge patient..

No longer afraid of assisting Drs..

Last met up with bf was on mon nite..

Yesterday he didn't want so I also nv force him..

Tonight he's coming to meet me..

Tomorrow I'm going out with Mei Xing..

I love having weekends off!!

2008-12-14T19:43:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went Jurong point with bf.. He brought me a white shirt as X'mas gift..

Although had an episode of quarrel over silly thing which made me teared before going.. The day was sweet..

Jurong point is now much bigger!

Slept and woke up with him..

Went dentist.. And then eat KFC breakfast.. It's not nice..

After which went Northpoint.. Although it's expanded but still nothing much to shop leh.. he bought a bra for me.. Haha..

Then headed to Causeway point.. Bought him a Nike bag as birthday present ($59.90)..

2 months ago, bought him a Swatch for $239.. He thinks it's too ex a gift.. So he returned me $200..

So I still gotta buy him a x'mas gift..

3 days of shopping! Loving him..

Friday was a nice day..

2008-12-13T13:21:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was on AM shift..

Assisted Drs in setting plug.. But both patients unsuccessful cos too chubby.. Poke so many times.. The first one successful only by Registrar.. Second one only took blood..

Took 2 cases yesterday and discharge a patient.. Didn't pass report that I wrote cos too busy helping with set plug..

Collected NPA, did CLC..

Lunchtime chatted with the ITE guys who are enjoying their last day.. They're funny.. One of them keep saying I'm pretty.. FAINT* But I told my bf no worries cos they're all younger than me by a year.. So it's simply impossible.. Gave him my number as he asked for it several times.. He wanna treat me dinner for hurting my toe.. Haha..

The nurses asked me to go bugis eat dessert with them after work.. I said okay but cos will be delayed due to loss of old notes of a patient, I didn't go with them..

Went Junction 8 with bf.. Watched Twilight.. I would rate it a 3.5 stars..

And there are guys who looked at me yesterday.. Long time nv make up le.. Didn't know I'm so attractive that one guy turned around and look at me like... So my bf ask me to wear more.. Lolz.. So I wear jacket lor.. Hate it when guys look at me like going to drool.. disgusting.. And when I went girls toilet got one girl also look at me.. Dots..

2 days of stupidity..

2008-12-11T16:43:00.004+08:00

Wednesday PM shift:

Yesterday the nus student and ite student each took the BP of a 2 weeks old baby.. Both get 60 plus for systolic.. So I took again.. We all use the new dynamap orange cuff..

I wanted to try the old dynamap cos usually it's more accurate for infants.. But before that we tried on another infant there's error..

So I inform my preceptor (SN in charge).. She asked me to inform the HO.. So I went to the HO.. However 2 MOs came with me instead..

They examine her and said she doesn't seem hypo.. So they asked me to take the O2 saturation.. I used the dynamap but it doesn't detect..

So I told them the dynamap got problem.. And rushed to take the SaO2 machine.. But all are in use so i went to borrow from the EN in the next cubicle..

She came along with me and she used the old dynamap to measure the BP again.. Systolic was 102.. And the dynamap saO2 can be used..

I felt like a total idiot as the MOs look at me..

Thursday morning shift:

Today another idiotic me..

I helped the SN despatch the urine specimen.. I forgot to put it into the pneumatic tube.. I just dropped it into the hole and send..

And I didn't realise my mistake until the SN told me..

The people came and repair.. Get the stuck specimen out..

I'm feeling so guilty for the inconvenience caused..

And the ITE student ask me that time similar incident happened was it also me.. OMG!! Recalling back.. I think I was on nite shift that day and I sent the specimen.. Twice and I didn't know wad's wrong with my sending method.. How can I be so stupid?!! I had sent thru pneumatic tubes in TTSH wad..

Haiz!! Super moody the whole day.. Nurses need to be vigilant and meticulous.. But I'm clumsy and careless!!! I'm just not suitable for this job..

But anyway inserted NGT yesterday for the first time.. Successful at first try cos patient is drowsy so never resist..

That 3 weeks of Geron posting I dread is actually better than these 5 weeks of PRCP.. At least I'm much more familiar in ttsh and now I've lost the confidence I once had..

Tomorrow morning shift and going to take case.. Hope can serve medication and do discharge..

And I find that I'm kinda scared of Drs now.. Not confident in talking to them or assisting them in procedures like setting plug..

Anyway these 2 wks got 4 ITE guys.. They're nice to joke around with.. But one of them so confident in me la.. Treat me as his in-charge like I very li hai like that.. But Oh no.. 5 weeks of doing junior and I'm still not that good! Haiz.. Very sad..

Oh 2 more incidents.. Last sunday a SN and cleaner laugh at me.. So sarcastic la.. I take key to open linen trolley to take linen.. Then the cleaner said cleaners' trolley got wad.. Why must go take key open so mafan.. Then the SN said ya lor.. magic.. Now she knows.. Haiz!! I know that there are.. But I took 3 times and they are torn, with holes or dirty.. I was so busy that day that I dun even bother to explain..

And today when I do NGT feeding.. The SN (pneumatic case) ask if she need to supervise me.. I told her I ASPIRATE then let her check the litmus paper.. She heard I say I'm EXPERT.. And say dun tell me u expert later like in the morning....... Though the way she said is not in a mean manner.. I felt like omg.. Everybody must be thinking of me as a fool.. Nobody will trust me anymore.. And it's like walau! I'll never ever say I'm an expert.. Not in anything.. And definitely not as a nurse!

Oh and the NUS and ITE students said I got fierce look.. Oh so many people had said that since dunno when.. Sick and tired of this.. I just dun smile 24/7 lor.. Not my fault I look fierce ma.. But of cos those who know me finds me friendly la..

Okay.. Enough of complaining..I'm going to take a nap and wait for my beloved bf to come and sayang me tonight..

A day w/o him..

2008-12-09T22:21:00.003+08:00

Today on morning shift.. It's week 5 and I'm still doing junior only... Abit sian le.. Did para, feeding toddler, bathe infant etc.. Not a busy day.. Just busy chatting with another ITE student.. Glad to have them around to pei me.. Had debrief session from 2 to 3.. Most people complained about not having enough time with preceptor..

Anyway not meeting him today and tomorrow.. Giving him space.. haha..

Today my friend Ma Li Li bought ne a water bottle.. The brand name is......

MING LI!!!!!!!!!

These 3 days..

2008-12-08T22:22:00.003+08:00

Saturday: AM shift.. Dearest bf gave me a surprise early in the morning by suddenly tapping me at the back at admiralty station.. pei me take train to work and wait for bus.. Super sweet of him.. Work was fine.. mainly taking para, sponging and feeding babies..

Sunday: AM shift.. A busy day at work.. NG tube feeding, taking para, doing CLC, sponging, bathing and feeding a 1 yr old cute boy etc.. After work go bugis and orchard with bf.. Watched City of amber which I'll rate 3.5 stars.. An interesting and exciting movie.. Anyway his mum ask him to bring me home again.. She said not pretty nvm as long as I'm nice.. Haha.. Too bad I'm pretty but naughty.. LOLz.. That's wad my bf and I joked about.. But he added on that I'm good wad.. Can work and earn money.. can cook.. Dots.. But he won't be bringing me home I guess.. Not until we're getting married ba..

Today is hari raya so no work for me.. Went chong pang with mum and uncle.. Bought a blouse for mum @ $30 as x'mas present.. Watched Madagascar 1 which bf lent me.. Bf came at 7 plus with my dinner.. Watched Tv with him..

Tomorrow on morning shift.. Hope it'll be a nice day..

2 days w/o other PRCP friends..

2008-12-05T18:48:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was on afternoon shift.. Did NG tube feeding, CLC, para, admission etc..

Today is on morning shift.. hai hao got ITE students pei me so not so bad.. Observed NGT insertion, assist Dr in setting plug, use enteral feeding pump, suctioning, hypocount, urine dipstick test, bring patient down to eye clinic, CLC, para, admission etc.. Wanted to bathe an infant but let the ITE guy do it instead.. Tomorrow I shall do it!

Anyway these 2 days nv meet bf.. Today he dun wanna meet me bcos his new 42" LCD TV come le.. Sianz.. Shall have an early night later ba..

Anyway yesterday tried the pantene 3 min miracle treatment.. It's not bad.. I got the sample cos i went online to register a month ago..

Next 2 wks roster is out.. I got off on mon (hari raya) and weekend.. Yeah! And I applied off day on 20th dec cos of bf's 21st birthday also approved.. But i can't go for 21st dec sec sch gathering cos i on PM shift.. not good to apply so many off ma.. Hope they can change the date or something..

Another day off gone just like that..

2008-12-03T23:16:00.005+08:00

Met Sing Ee for badminton in the afternoon.. Played for an hour.. Very long never play with her le.. Reminds me of our pri and sec sch days.. 8 years of friendship..

Met bf at Jurong east and went Dhoby Ghaut with him cos he meeting someone from ebay to buy stuff..

Had dinner at plaza singapura and then back home.. Super sian..

Haiz..

2008-12-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

Bf came at 7 plus and went home at 10 plus.. I'm missing him already..

Feeling sianz.. Having pimple outbreak cos of period, late nights etc.. And gained 2 kg cos of increase appetite.. My tummy isn't flat anymore.. My hair isn't straight anymore..

Already 4th week of PRCP le.. Hope it ends soon but also hope my working life dun come so soon.. Truthfully I'm tired of nursing after these 3 yrs of attachments..

Tired of shift work.. Thinking of 1 day off per week (and not weekend) and only $1550basic pay I'm super sian.. Already thinking I'll leave this career which i chose when everyone objects after my 2 yr bond..

Very sad to say this but I've got no ambition, no interest.. I dunno wad lies ahead in my future.. I'm not scared but just sianz.. I had plans but now I'm giving up my plans as reality is different from expectations..

My mindset had changed.. I used to think that the most important criteria in a job is interest (I had thought that nursing is intersting, but now I find it a routine which bores me.. I dun get the satisfaction I'm looking for..)

Now wad I think is that in reality, a job is just something u hav to go through to survive.. U r happy not bcos of the job itself but bcos when u earn money u can buy wad u want, u can go where u wanna go with who u wanna be with..

1 day to my 2 yr 8 mths anniversary with bf.. I'm glad to have him around but getting tired of relationship also..

I'm contented but not truly happy.. I dunno why.. I dunno when I lost my enthusiaism for everything..

Time really flies.. Looking back, I see myself different.. I see everyone different.. Growing up is a process that is making me feel I've lost myself.. More and more responsibilities.. Less and less time for enjoyment..

Although I dun exactly have a very happy childhood.. I wish I'm always a child..

2 days of night shift..

2008-12-02T19:06:00.003+08:00

Sunday watched the break-up.. Made me really dun wish to get married.. haha.. 2 different persons how to compromise so much just bcos of comittment? Scary bf has been asking me to sign the 'contract'.. Lolz.. The earliest is 4 yrs later I guess..

Anyway at night bf drove me to KKH..

Last night bf walked me to admiralty and took train with me to novena and wait for bus with me.. So sweet of him.. Can sense he loves me more as each day passes..

Anyway the 2 nights were really tiring.. 2 hrly para, feeding babies, giving ventolin puffs using MDI etc.. Last night fell asleep lying on my arm on the table until my hand numbed.. Drool a drop of saliva on the table.. EEEk! And guess wad? Nobody came to wake me up so I went for 1 1/2 hr break.. So stupid.. haha.. but my preceptor said nvm.. Hehe.. She's nice..

Today slept in whole day like yesterday afternoon.. Sian.. One day off is gone just like that.. Now waiting for bf to come..

Tomorrow going to play badminton with Sing ee in the afternoon and meet bf go orchard at night..

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爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。

*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！

*听到了吗？明白了吗？
难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
如果每个人都
懒得讲话、
懒得倾听、
懒得制造惊喜、
懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，
又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？
所以请记住：
有活力的爱情，
是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！

*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，他的男朋友很不高兴的说：你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，我以後再也不会等你了！刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了

*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。

你体会到了吗？
*其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！
懂了吗？
当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
那并不代表你会选择他。
*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！
他或许已经等你很久喽！

*当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。
如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

*所以请记住，
喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，
爱一个人不要超过八分

*那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？
我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！

*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，
而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

Dating..

2008-11-30T00:55:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 5 in the morning and go work.. Quite tiring doing para, feeding a 29-day old etc.. Perhaps it's cos I need to wear and take off surgical mask as I run about in and out of 2 isolation rooms..

After work met bf 3 plus at novena and we went s'pore expo IT fair.. Very crowded.. Lost my temper today cos he kicked my toe nail accidentally (painful!), came out of stupid toilet which I Q very long and can't find him, him laughing at me cos I'm blur, him looking at girls all day long as usual etc.. Small things.. I guess my temper is bad whenever I'm tired.. And he said everytime I pei him go these kinda fairs, I'll end up unhappy.. HAiz.. Of cos la.. Go there kena bumped by so many people.. Squeeze here and there looking at LCDs and laptops which we r not buying.. Wad for?

Anyway went vivo secret recipe for dinner.. Then realised there's fireworks at 9:15pm so shop around and saw the fireworks..

Finally his exercise ended..

2008-11-28T18:17:00.006+08:00

Today is 8 to 4 again.. My group is the first to present.. I presented on enteral feeding pump with demo.. I guess I'm trained to be a presenter w/o nervousness le.. Anyway reached home earlier today cos uncle and mum drove me home..

Tomorrow is AM shift 7 to 3.. Wk 3 supposed to follow preceptor doing SN stuffs..

Later he coming over to my house.. Yeah! It's been a week since he last came my house..

Yet another boring day..

2008-11-27T19:32:00.005+08:00

Today is 8 to 4 again.. Whole day is listen to presentations etc.. In between got break so played Bingo..

Never meet bf cos he wanna slp more.. His exercise is ending.. Tonight shall be his last day of night shift if nth goes wrong..

Tomorrow is my turn to present on enteral feeding.. After which 2 to 4 will be back to ward as JCI ends..

So sian of no weekends off!!

Waiting for his exercise to finish..

2008-11-26T18:38:00.004+08:00

Yesterday did nothing much except watch tv..

Today is 8 to 4 at lecture theatre for JCI topics and videos.. very sleepy and boring.. However a video made my tears flow..

Tomorrow and friday is still 8 to 4 presenting case studies.. sian..

Met my tired bf for 40 min downstairs before he go back camp..